Someone to search for...

Call me choosy, call me picky... But I will settle for nothing less...

I have given myself the best that I can afford, therefore I need someone to give me their best that they can afford..

I'm not asking for labels and diamonds and such... I am asking for a commitment, of the best that they can offer to me...

Yes, I am important to my family, to myself, therefore to be with me, I must be important to thy self...

I am tired of taking care of a guy... so in this sense, I need a guy to take care of me instead... to be there for me, and whom is worth for me to love and care for and for me to call important in return...

I am not seeking for someone wealthy or whom can affored luxury, I am not seeking for someone with a PhD... I am seeking for someone stable enough to give me the comfort and happiness and responsibility I am looking for.

Will I find such person?? Hopefully I will... All I'm asking is to have someone to treat me as important and to offer me the best that they can offer...


Cerewet? Picky? Choosy? Maybe... but I won't settle for unhappiness again. This is my life, this is my families life... and I want the best for it.

Memang confused...

Office I ni kan... mmg confused... n suke bg org confused.... Now I dah bertambah confused, on what position I have to take.. I was offered another 2 position, other than becoming a Relationship Manager, because they still think I'm too new n not enough experience to become an RM... huhu... Now I have to choose whether to remain in the branch and stick to what I do know.. which is becoming everyones secretary or do admin work in HQ or become a Dual Currency Specialist cum advisor... sounds nice.. but x larat la nak tengok forex movement every minute for 8 hours a day, 5 days a week kan... huhhh....

See how it goes la.. had a talk with my parents and some of my friends.. and I'm already leaning towards taking the Branch Distribution position kat HQ... kene gi situ, then pegi la.. nk wat cemane.. huhu...

Changes...

There are times where we have to except the changes in life... nothing remains the same... especially when it comes to the human heart... it could change everyday, every hour, every minute, every second...

It is when you can't except the changes that you can't move on, because you're stuck in the past.. you're to comfortable in the past that you don't want changes, and when change does come, it hurts you or affects you in some ways...

Friends, over time change.. especially when we go through the phases in life, career, relationships... nothing is the same... closeness, could somewhat be something of a pass...

I for one, am a person who sometimes find it hard to except changes in a friendship... because when I get into one, I hold on to it dearly.. but as time goes by, and I feel that my grip is loosening, I find it hard to let go or except the fact... I sometimes expect things to change the way I want or think it should be, but eventually, that won't happen... I guess I will learn slowly to face these changes around me... I find it hard some times... and I still do... It's just that I am good at hiding my feelings towards these changes that people don't realise that my mind is boggling away with these feelings.

Changes... it's the ever evolving world... if one can change with the world as well as one can change with the technology or economy, in terms of tech and economic enthusiast... it will be much easier, but alas... nothing is easy in life.. it is the ability or the learning to except these changes overtime and be strong with it, makes you move on with it... sometimes so rough, you hit yourself in the head to hard, sometimes so smooth, you don't even realise it happening... It's all about how you bring about yourself...




P/S:God Dammit... I don't wanna care anymore about what other people say that makes me uncomfy... I do what I do, when I want it, where and how I want it, as long as I am happy and I know that what I do is the right thing for me... not for anyone else... there! I don't want to take care of other people anymore, well what I mean is that, I don't want to care about people who don't want to care about me... I'm taking care of myself and my family...

Said my part.... This is my opinion, this is what I think...

Perjalananku ke negara jiran..

Tak tersusun la gambar ni... anyway... here's some things that I did in Jakarta & Bandung recently..
Gedung Samudera, Anchol: It's like a mini searworld laa.. so there's some animal shows n stuff.. Ni hippo yg sgt besar.. Huhu.. Hippo pun org bleh train..

The dolphins: My favourite of all times... comel gile... I wish I could swim with 'em

The dolphins sgt graceful... I want a dolphin!!!

Hot springs, Bandung: Here's my dad and my grandparents tgh merendam kaki kat telaga air panas.. panas giler ok!! tapi best... if u look closely, u can see that daddy's feet are already turning red..

Sea world Aquarium: This is during feeding time... byk giler ikan, sampai the divers nk gerak pun susah... and the best part is, the sting rays come and hug and kiss the divers.. saje je nk membodek the divers so that they get the 1st meal... haha

The kambings: they sell them by the road side.. for Qurban... hahahaha.. kesian kambing2 ni..

The Indonesian Menu: Tengokla... pelik kan?? I mean, bahasa derang lain gile.. if we were to read it, we'd laugh... but I guess if the Indonesians read our Menu, they'd laugh too.. Take a look at "Nasi Liwet Komplit"... sounds wrong kan?? Hahaha.. It's actually like nasik berlauk.. but they bungkus dlm daun pisang.. ade ayam, serunding and stuff.. "Gurame Goreng"... It's deep fried fish.. sedap giler ok!!! "Ayam berkakak"???? errr....

What's that???: It's a big bag of red chilis.. org kampung/farmers dok bwk on a bike.. kalo terlepas la kannnn... huhuhu

Aiyooo.... This I cannot tahan.. the pack road... and look at that... sampah bertimbun kat tepi jalan.. mcm tu je... I wonder how the bikers leh tahan the smell.. huhuhu...

Nevertheless, I enjoyed the trip.. owh... I like Jln. General Sudirman kat Jakarta... sgt tersusun ok the buildings on that road... and it's clean... bile mlm lagi cantik, with all the skyscrapers around.. huhu... Best2!! Lenkali nk gi lg... shopping nyer pasal!! Hahahahah...

Something funny..

When me and my family were in Jakarta, we went to their version of Sea World.. and actually, their sea world, which is actually similar to our Aquaria, is much better than some other places claiming to have the best aquarium/tunnel, yada-yada..

Anyway.. the story goes.. my dad was about to buy the tickets of admission.. and placed on the sign was the admission fees. On one particular part, it was written "Seniors aged 55 and above-50% discount".. after a few minutes, baru my dad realise... "Eh.. I'm 55 years old!! Dah senior citizen!!!" Everyone bantai tergelak... Even my grandparents gelak terkekeh2.. and my grandma was like "Anak aku dah senior citizen!!!" Sambil ketawa sampai kuar air mate..

Hahahahhahaha.. cute la Daddy... dah 55 dah... how time flies... love u still!!

Mommy... 4 years time ehh... hakhakhak!!!

Sempurna

Lyrics | Andra & The Back Bone lyrics - Sempurna lyrics

All by myself...

Kununnye...

But yeah.. I do feel extremely sunyi and lonely... coz I'm missing some of my friends a lot..

And one thing that also comes in mind.. is that.. I miss someone to talk whom you call a partner.. a loved one.. not a friend, not a family member.. but a lover.. I miss that.. I really2 do...

I miss holding a person you love, or just even looking at that person.. I miss the warmth, comfy feeling you have when that person is around..

I'm not desperate in looking for a partner though.. but I must admit, I do feel kinda lonely in that area... and having hundreds of your loving family and friends still can't fill in that one small emptiness inside...

Sigh... time will tell... InsyaAllah..

Almost there...

My room is finally complete.. well almost la... about 80% complete laa...

Just got a new almari Saturday (yesterday) ni... and it's huge!!! bleh muat like 5 org ok!! Hahahaha...

Semangat giler nk kemas2 barang masuk the new almari... ngeee~~

Now I have tons of places for my stuffs...

Tapi kan, terase kecik la my room now.. but takpe.. it does feel comfy at the same time...

Now just nak tunggu my parents buy their own side table, so that I can have mine back... then I nk beli one nice chair to put by the window.. tempat utk lepak2 bace buku or berangan or bergayut... Ngee~~

Harini gi shopping ngan Zeryn kat OU... dah lame x gi shopping ngan die.. best giler!! Despite tgh x sehat... bantai je jenjalan... kan? kan?? hahahahaha... before that pepagi tadi gi breakfast ngan Zeryn... pastu i wanted to go to OU.. then Zeryn ikot skali... yeayy... ade kawan!!

Today is a fun day!!!

Besok kerja.... bluwekkkk!!!

Udah pulang...

Mbak2 dan Mas sekalian... Gue udah pulang...

Nothing like home sweet home..

Jakarta & Bandung were nice.. but the traffic jam I can't stand.. I think we wasted a lot of time inside the van, getting stuck with the ridiculously heavy traffic...

I miss my friends...

By d way.. let's sum up what I bought:

• 2 lace liplap2...
• 2 kebaya set
• 2 handbags... n got 1 free, so 3 handbags
• 1 backpack
• and the rest for org yg memesan n souvenir gak... heehehehe...

Jakarta & Bandung... here I come..

Goin' to Bandung, then Jakarta... tataaaa!!!...