Tuesday, October 27, 2009

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I deserve someone better...

But somehow I think I might get stuck on you...

HELP!!!

Maybe I haven't been looking far enough... I'm just concentrating on someone who's within my comfort zone.. cannot... cannot... have to go outside!!! Sheeessshhh...

Silence is Silver




People say silence is golden...


It is when there was too much noise around before... But when there is too much of silence.. things get kinda awkward and u long for that noise to come in... even a tweet or a grunt would do. But now? Nothing.. no word.. no hiccup.. nada.. It's been 2 weeks. Well.. except for a couple of e-mails that has been forwarded on and on...


I guess they truly don't want me in their life now... they truly want to throw me away and not be my friends anymore.


I don't know what to do when 20th November comes.. the day all of us are suppose to get together to welcome back our best friend who's coming home from Auckland. All of us were invited to come to KLIA and give a warm welcome home to him... all of us including them. But they don't seem to want to be there. I dunno. If they are there.. how should I react? Like I've never met them before? Like an old friend? or like an enemy/threat to them?

This is sad... this is very sad. Thank God that my mind is occupied with all the things I need to settle now.. at least I don't think about them much.






Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Presentations & silly people

Two presentations done... 4 more to go... giler ah... i could go cuckoo any second with all these assignments and tests and presentations. But i will prevail!!!


By the way.. recently, I was talking to a few of my friends, and I told them how busy my schedule was having taken MBA. Which is in fact true.. I hardly have the time to go out that much now.. but yeah, I guess that's the sacrifice I've gotta go through when I put myself in MBA, right? So my intentions of letting my friends know was for them to merely listen and understand why I'm so busy and have little time for them now. Then adela sipolan2 ni.. whom said "Tulaaaa... siapa suruh u amik MBA.. kan dah bising2!!"

Lg satu bengang bile I kate I xcukup duit n stuff kalo nk spend as lavish as I did mase kerja dulu... itupun derang kate the same thing "Tulaa.. dulu dah elok ade gaji.. duit banyak.. skrg dah quit.. budget2 plak..." Dude... dah jd student kot... lain la kalo aku ni anak millionaire ke billionaire ke... bleh kot nk spend gile2... I'm matured enough already to think that I have to budget myself nowadays.. especially when I'm a student now.

What d hell? Who are you to say that? I mmg nk amik MBA and I know what the consequences are of it... so just because i don't have time to go out with you guys or even contact you guys, xyah la nk ckp camtu... ingat senang ke what we're going through? Budus tul... I just bgtau jer yg I penat n stuff.. yela.. mmg stressful n what not.. and of course.. sape yg x bising kan??? but to have a friend or family to say that to you makes it all worse.. it's as if kite ni buat bende yg membebankan diri sendiri... je.. or dlm erti kate lain.. cari pasal.

Excuse me.. sekurang2nya I'm one step ahead of you... I busy ke ape ke.. when I graduate with my MBA.. I'm better off kot.. and I'll prove it to you guys! I will!!! Yg sebenaryne.. some ppl are just jealous of kelebihan org lain.

P/S: this is intended to those yg kate bende2 tu kat I je.. yg xde ckp ape2.. or yg menyokong I amik MBA.. xyah terase.. kroang are the best in terms of the support and understanding you guys gave me...