A New Start

Dear all... like there are so many readers...

Am making a new start.. so here's my new blog link:

callmeprincessdee2

Here's to a new start... SEE YA!!!

This could be the end...

I was contemplating on whether I should continue with this blog or start with a new one. A fresh one, for a fresh, new beginning. Maybe I would.. If I do start a new one, I'll still keep this one and will give a link to my new blog.

Anyways... on another note, I pity the young ones... (shows I'm old already). As in those in their early 20's or late teens.. just after SPM.. they have no idea what's ahead of them... the real world that is. Well, there in for some surprise... Just hope they do well and don't let us older generations down. Our future depends on us, but our children's future depends on them. So one way or another, we have to learn to be more open minded and smart and most of all, strong willed and cooperative of one another.

Well.. see you soon, in my new blog I hope.

How to Improve Your Life

The philosophy of Prof. Randy Pausch who died of pancreatic cancer in 2008.

This is amazing, he died of pancreatic cancer in 2008, but wrote a book ‘The last lecture” before then, one of the bestsellers in 2007. What a legacy to leave behind…
In a letter to his wife Jai and his children, Dylan, Logan, and Chloe, he wrote this beautiful "guide to a better life" for his wife and children to follow.
May you be blessed by his insight.



POINTS ON HOW TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE

Personality:
1. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
2. Don't have negative thoughts of things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment
3. Don't over do; keep your limits
4. Don't take yourself so seriously; no one else does
5. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip
6. Dream more while you are awake
7. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
8. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner of his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
9. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
10. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present
11. No one is in charge of your happiness except you
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn.
Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Smile and laugh more
14. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Community:
15. Call your family often
16. Each day give something good to others
17. Forgive everyone for everything
18. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6
19. Try to make at least three people smile each day
20. What other people think of you is none of your business
21. Your job will not take care of you when you are sick. Your family and friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
22. Put GOD first in anything and everything that you think, say and do.
23. GOD heals everything
24. Do the right things
25. However good or bad a situation is, it will change
26. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up
27. The best is yet to come
28. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful
29. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it
30. If you know GOD you will always be happy. So, be happy.

While you practice all of the above, share this knowledge with the people you love, people you school with,
people you play with, people you work with and people you live with.
Not only will it enrich YOUR life, but also that of those around you.

Busy...

I have been super duper busy... I haven't had time to blog. Will try to do so soon. So much to say, so little time. Sheesh~

Memory... Gone

I'm selling off my old handphone to my friend... so this few days, I've been transferring all the pictures and videos into my Lappy... all but the messages.. somehow I'm not able to transfer all the messages in my inbox into my Lappy...


So i did the unthinkable.. I deleted ALL the messages in my inbox, including those from my previous messages when I was still with Mr. H... looks like the memory would either have to remain in my mind.. or just deleted as fast as my phone deleted it.

Well.. time to move on.. which I've done already for the past couple of weeks. Let's toast for a new start shall we? " For a great new start ahead!!" *clinks glass*

The past could now be the future

Refer 2 posts below on my turning of 27 years and one month young, point number "5".

Now that my ex has propose, I'm contemplating on whether I should go back to him. We've been friends for almost 7 years now, and everytime one of us break up wit another person, after our own break up, we always end up being there for each other, comforting each other.

The lists goes on and on on our similarity and chemistry... and it made me think on whether he is THE one after all... he says I am his.. I dunno. Well... There's still time for me to think about it... we've given each other until next year to think things out properly.. plus I'm seeing and testing whether he can be THE ONE.

Let's see how it goes within a year, eh?

Till then.. toodles.

Over it

I am completely over you, and can now except you as just a friend, and not more...


Happy!!!

Crazy Beautiful

Just now on Oprah, she interviewed Jessica Simpson on the recent kiss n tell made by her ex, John Mayer (wat a Jerk!)... and how she was critisized about her weight.

Jessica Simpson is also doing a show.. called.. err.. xingat. hahaha~ (I was sleepy laaa). It's about how she n 2 of her friends, went around the world and found out how important beauty is for woman from different countries and how far they'll go through pain and $$$ for beauty. She interviewed an aneroxia model who went into a coma because she didn't ate due to the fact that her modelling agency required her to loose 10kg. Kesian tgk that lady... she looked pretty but scary at the same time... all skin n bones left. And then there were countries in which ladies drank cow urine to cleanse their body.. eeeuuuwwww... seriously.. what are they thinking???

Macam-macam la cara nk maintain beauty and to be beautiful.. billions n billions of dollars spent on cosmetics, operations, etc2... all because of the pressure of becoming beautiful.

Oprah and Jessica mentioned that, it's whats inside that counts.. the inner beauty which then reflects your outer beauty... that is Beautiful. If you think u're beautiful, and have a beautiful heart, even if u have only one eye... you're still beautiful, unique and most importantly, you're you.

Never let anyone say you're any lower, too fat or too skinny, too ugly or of those alike. It's you and what you think that counts. No other person's words matter.. not even your loved one. Once you feel confident, feel beautiful and believe you're beautiful.. it will reflect onto yourselves.

I'm proud to have what I have.. my looks.. everything. Ok.. I do need to slim down a bit, but it's more to becoming healthier and be easier to find clothes in petite Malaysia whom don't sell a lot of plus size stuff. Sheesh~ I aim being fit n healthy... not skinny.

On another similar note. Beautiful but shallow and ignorant people won't win in the end. Being beautiful on the inside, however, wins you more than anything.

27 years old and One Month

Today I am 27 years and 1 month young. Hehe~

Through out the past one month, I went thru so many things.. It shows how much things can happen within a month.. and how things can change within an instant, and how we should appreciate each and every minute and hour and day, etc. This is what happened for the past month of turning 27:

1. Went to a best friend's wedding
2. Had my Birthday celebration in 4 different restaurants by 4 different groups of people. ( I have such a wonderful family and friends!)
3. Broke Up with my boyfriend of 6 months..
4. Sulked and went thru an emotional breakdown for a week.
5. Got a marriage proposal by my ex.
6. Had a fever, cold and cough.
7. Registered for Scuba Diving classes.
8. Registered for my final semester of MBA.
9. Made of a about 5 new friends.
10. Went to a funeral of my former classmate/ friend.
11. Had food poisoning.
12. Went to Salsa for the 1st time.
13. Help deliver 5 kittens.
14. Found out my best friend is pregnant.
15. Met the Queen, 2 times.
16. Attended a private fashion show in one of Malaysia's richest man's residence.

Sheesh... that's approximately one event for every 2 days!! Huhu.. Well, as long as it keeps me sane and more experienced in life thus a better person.. I'm prepared to take on the world! Ngee~

Of Curtsies and Table Manners.

These recent years.. ever since I came back from New Zealand, Mom has been bringing me to functions here n there... with the idea of exposing me to people for good networking as well as potential mother in laws.. (yikes!) or simply introducing us to the extended members of the royal family.

I think it runs in the family.. because Mom n her sisters went thru the same thing when they were young... though only my aunt had an arranged marriaged, while mom n her younger sister wed to people whom they fell in love with.

The functions, that mom recently brought me to, consists of those that have the royal families as special guests. Requiring upmost good manners, flare and etiquette. Since mom still keeps her Royal traditions, she's been training me to speak the royal language and how to sembah the King and Queen and so forth.

The thing is, I wasn't thought these things since I was young. So it's a bit weird at first.

I remember one particular day, my mom babbling to me n my cousins of not using the 'Palace Language' amongst us. We answered by saying that, if the moms wanted us to use those language, they should have thought us since we were young. Using 'Patik' tu address ourselves, 'santap' - eat, 'beradu'-rest/sleep, etc. etc... now that most of us cousins are of 15 and over.. it's hard for us to learn something new. Though we've tried to in a few gatherings that had our great aunts n uncles.

Nevertheless, we're proud that, even though we are no longer the reigning family to the throne, that we managed to keep some of the Royal traditions in hand, when needed... Hopefully wel'll manage to teach our children some of the tata tertib and manners of the Royal family, so that it can be brought down to generations. May the heritage line of Sultan Abdullah remain strong in our bloods. InsyaAllah.

Take One... Action!

The part he's acting in is out today.. eh, wait.. was yesterday.
Okla.. the acting. Garang! Huhu.. But it made me miss him more.

Tadi pergi The Curve, got hot chocolate from Starbucjs, passed the seat that the both of us sat at when we first met each other six months ago. Missed him more.

Even found videos of him strumming on the guitar with his friends, and playing on the keyboard on an old Sudirman song. Well, he told me about it a few days ago.. I didn't even knew it was there, until he asked me whether I added him on Youtube.. I was like.. "I didn't even know you had any videos's on youtube!" Except for the one's of the trailers..Sheesh~ so since he mentioned it, I decided to check it out. There it was.. in full view.. October 2006~Video's of him playing musical instruments. It made me shiver.. it made me miss him more.

All these things this week... why?? Why must these things come up when I miss him the most???

I miss his hug. I miss his hands... I miss everything about him. I'm not that sad anymore about the whole thing. I just miss him really badly.

These missing him thing has got to go away.. wait.. I don't want that. I do.. I don't... I don't know. Sigh~

Us...

There was never anything wrong with us...

The problems we had were normal couple problems...

Those complicating stuff could've been avoided, could've be solved.

We had our normal misunderstandings and couple quarrels..

But on top of all that, we were there, caring for each other.

It was a relatioship that could work out if we wanted to..

A relationship that could be mended if we wanted to...

But now, here I am wondering, why we mutually agreed to go our separate ways...

When all I needed was you...

I don't know if you need me too...
But I'm deeply missing you, needing you here with me, in my arms, by my side.


It's been a week, and it's not any easier. Everything, everywhere, reminds me of you.


I miss you Mr. H. I love you.

"Time For Miracles"

It's late at night and I can't sleep
Missing you just runs too deep
Oh I can't breathe thinking of your smile
Every kiss I can't forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cause I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us

I just want to be with you
Cuz living is so hard to do
When all I know is trapped inside your eyes
The future I cannot forget
This aching heart ain't broken yet
Oh God I wish I could make you see
Cuz I know this flame isn't dying
So nothing can stop me from trying

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cause I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us
Baby can you feel it (can you)
You know I can hear it (hear it in my soul)
So can you feel it feel it….
You know it's time….

Baby you know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know that
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
You know
Maybe it's time for miracles
Cuz I ain't giving up on love
No I ain't giving up on us
I ain't giving up no
Oh I ain't giving up on us

This is for you...

Signs...

Ignoring the signs.. though sometimes I wonder whether those signs mean something or anything. Do they?


Not hoping.. just positive thoughts off my wellbeing.

I miss you. :(

The E.N.D.

The End, meaning the end of a relationship.

The E.N.D (Energy Never Dies, according to Black Eyed Peas) meaning, that the respect and energy as friends, will never die.


Me n Incik have broken up. As much as it hurts, I know things will be alright in the end. I've been sulking for 2 days at home.. not wanting to get out of bed and out of my room. It's good that my parents understand it and just brings me down for lunch and dinner, and let me go back to my room.

Am I hurt? of course I am. But I knew that it this thing would've happen, with the turmoil we were having the past few months, which is why it wasn't a surprise to me when that dreadful day came. Though it deeply saddens me that we couldn't work things out anymore, and it deeply saddens me that I won't be able to love him or feel his love the same way again. But it is also good to know, that we've decided to still remain friends.

He has been the best boyfriend so far... and I appreciate all the time we've spent together, and I am grateful to been given the opportunity to meet him, be loved by him and so forth. It was a wonderful experience that I won't forget. I will still love him, even as a friend, even as a normal person.

It will take some time for me to properly heal.. but I know I'll get to that point soon, and be a better person from this experience.

On another note, to my friends.. I know some of you want to put all the blame of this break-up on him. But don't. For my sake, don't. When I agreed to let him go and go our separate ways, I also let go on all the anger I had... It was not his fault, and it wasn't mine. It was just not meant to be at this time. When I hear my friends saying bad things.. it doesn't make me feel better or stronger.. it just makes me feel worse. So out of respect for me, there is no need for my friends to diss him. What has passed, has passed, and I need to move on.

What the future holds for me, I have no idea. I'll make notes, I'll dream and I'll believe, but the rest, lays in the hand of God. I may find someone better, I may end up with Incik again, or one of my exes.. who knows. But whatever lies in the future for me, I'd greatly accept it with open arms.

Silence

The silence is kinda good... the distance is good too... maybe it will do us good. Let our minds get clearer n stuff. I don't feel an obligation at all...

Well..., as they sometimes say, being apart makes us stronger. So maybe this will too~


I still love you though... Always have, always will be. =)

Ponder...

Not giving excuses to protect my love one.
People always get the idea that when I say things.. I make excuses for my love ones to treat me badly. It's not that. And I'm not settling for whatever there is... that's plain silly.

Of course I want better things from my partner. But I'm not pushing. I realise I don't like being pushed, so I won't want to push another person at that.
I just don't want to bother on the things that could make me feel down.
I prefer to look at the bright things in life and stop complaining and think positive.
If God has written that we are meant together, together will be, if we're not meant to be together.. together we won't be.

I'm turning a new leaf now and looking at the positive things and shoving all negative vibes aside. I'm looking at what made us where we are today and how we started to fall for each other in the 1st place. No, I am not in denial. I do not deny that there are things that made me unhappy. But If I continue sulking and complaining and pushing my other half to be better, those negative things won't just go away. So it's better to turn things around and react positively... InsyaAllah, the response from the other half would be much better. It has actually... there's a lot of improvement, ever since I started the whole positive manifestation thingy. And I believe that it will be alright in the end. Just need to hold on and be a bit more patient.

If it doesn't work out in the end, it won't be the end of the world for me. There are other things to explore, and I'm not afraid of being let down again.

This is how I feel... though I thank everyone for their comments. It does help me think. =)

Turning 27

It's past midnight already. I'm officially 27 years young! Haha... 27 is just a number. According to my friend, it's not just another year.. it's a year better. I believe that.

Lots more things to explore, more to improve.. more people to meet, more experiences to go through. I hope.. no..I believe that this turning of 27 will give me one of the best experiences in life. I believe things will be much better for me this year around.

Oh, I just I love myself! Happy Birthday to me!!!

2nd Semester

Results are out. I got thru. GPA of 3.47. Shy of 0.03 points of 3.50. Nevertheless, I'm happy with my results. Just wondering why I'm not grinning ear to ear. Maybe because I waited for 8 hours to actually get my results, coz the uitm student portal crashed n hanged. And that means I'm super exhausted.

Well.. a good B'day gift to myself. Things seem to look good for my turning 27. Loving it!!! Alhamdulillah.

I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)
I am never without it(anywhere
I go you go,my dear;

And whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
I fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

Edward Estlin Cummings