Pain in the A*s

The pain is real... right there, down there... not IN there... but somewhere at the end of the spine.

Tomorrow is the doctor's appointment.. wait.. not tomorrow.. in 8 hours time.. yeapp... hope there's nothing serious, though I must admit.. watching movies or sitting in the couch or even driving is not as fun as it used to when your ass is all painful when you move or stand up.. God help me... let this be just a normal pain that will go away with some medicines and not anything severe...




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On another note... a few people are being a pain in the ass (literally) this past few days.. Like come on.. do I LOOK like a sugar mommy to you? DO I?? I ty to get to know guys.. and the 1st thing they ask after a few phone calls (which I had to do the calling) is to ask for credit top-ups. Those jerks... and some even have the nerve to msg me to ask me for money.. 'to borrow' as they say.. yeah.. watever!!! U're not like my boyfriend or watever... Then.. ajak org kluar... but I end up having to pay for dinner, for the movies.. and kononnya nak tunjuk baik... they help pay for the parking ticket.. which is like a freaking RM1 ringgit je!!! Bodoh manusia2 sekalian...

Giler la some guys nowadays.. playing up on woman like that... tak malu langsung!!! Bodoh and eeee!!! Idiot giler!!! I fired them up all right.. gave a stern message to leave me alone. Ngaha!!! Rasekan... nk pergunakan girls like that.. huhh... pantang tok nenek moyang aku la!!!


Where are all the decent guys out there?? Well.. adela.. my friends are like those... which is why I stick to them... but their friends.. that's that.. no further relationship... Sheesh... Where's my prince charming? My Edward Cullen, my Prince Henry, my Drover, my McDreamy & McSteamy???

Still waiting...

Sakit...

My bottom hurts...

sounds funny.. but it ain't... I can't sit for too long without feeling the pain...
Could there be something wrong? tersalah urat or sumthing?

Should be seeing a specialist by this week or nxt... haritu gi clinic, but the doctor just gave me a pain killer.. didn't work though...

Hopefully nothing serious la.. dah 2 bulan rase sakit ni... especially when I sit down for too long or mase driving... i might need to bring a cushion, nxt time i go to class.. nk bgn pun rase sakit... Could be the effect of my fall 3 yrs ago, mase jatuh rollerblade in welly...

Doakan everythings ok and there's nothing serious...

Takut n nervous... but trying to stay positive despite the many negative feedbacks...

SOMEONE

Bosan sorang2...

I need someone to hold me down...

No more scandals...

No more acquaintances

I need SOMEONE...

2 years going on 3 years is not an easy thing for me... I'm getting older by the day...

"Shut up and stop complaining... enjoy single life!!" People say... " The right person will come... be patient" Others have said...Damn you... 3 years is freaking toooooo long!!! Especially when the previous one was not even close as being a true relationship.. that jerk...

Where art thou, SOMEONE???

I need to turn my life around...

What would you do???

Tadi dkt AXN, they showed this one series called "What Would You Do?".. it was about how we react or don't on the things that happen around us.

There were two most shocking videos that they showed.. and mmg teruk giler.. one video showed these people lining up nk order pizza... n then suddenly one couple kulit hitam ni cari gaduh ngan one hispanic guy.. padehal hispanic guy tu xde buat ape pun.. n the boyfriend ni pergi tumbuk that guy bertalu2.. n what did the rest of the onlookers do? Tengokkkkk jer.. tak menjerit suruh stop ke.. atau tolong mamat yg kene tumbuk tu.. just tengok je.. siap leh bisik2 kat each other lg... no one did anything until the police arrived. I assume the manager of the pizza place tu la kot yg call. Giler trok kan.. I mean u see a guy being beaten up ntah brape puluh kali.. n u leh tengok je mcm xde ape2.. dgn muke sardin camtu.. Ish.. xberhati perut langsung..

The nxt video was even worse.. it was a small road.. in the middle of the pekan.. and this 70 yrd old man kene langgar kreta... hit n run... no one went to help him.. the cars yg lalu lalang pun x stop... derang dtg keliling that guy and tenung je that guy... siap ade satu motorcyclist ni.. bwk motor die pelan je lalu kat that old man.. tp xde buat ape2. N that old man had a head injury and was bleeding thru the head.. Only one lady had the guts to call the ambulance.. and sambil tunggu tu.. no one did anything.. sampai la a police car came to the scene... Sadly, the old man died before they could rush him to the hospital, because of hi non-stop bleeding at the head. Then they interviewed that man punye son.. n he was crying like a baby... and saying " my father loved to help people.. and when he was dying.. no one even lift a finger". The son even came out with a campaign to find the person who hit his father.. but not many people cooperated with him and the local authorities.. so sampai skrg la they don't know who the killer is.

Gosh... what would you do? If it was me.. I would have helped the old man.. and in terms of that hispanic guy being hit.. I might have called the cops earlier or something.. rather then just tengok n do nothing. I hope we Malaysians aren't like that la... Skrg ni mmg nampak Malaysians are caring and help one another... (yelaa.. sampai org on d opposite road accident, org lain yg dok sebok stop n see sampai traffic jam.. haha!!)

Let's be more caring to one another n the society and think of what it would be like if we were in the shoes of those helpless and in need...

Nyeheh...

Exam... done
Assignments...done

Now?? Cuti for a month n a half!!! yeeeaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!!
Mari kite berjimba wamba!!!

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I deserve someone better...

But somehow I think I might get stuck on you...

HELP!!!

Maybe I haven't been looking far enough... I'm just concentrating on someone who's within my comfort zone.. cannot... cannot... have to go outside!!! Sheeessshhh...

Silence is Silver

People say silence is golden...

It is when there was too much noise around before... But when there is too much of silence.. things get kinda awkward and u long for that noise to come in... even a tweet or a grunt would do. But now? Nothing.. no word.. no hiccup.. nada.. It's been 2 weeks. Well.. except for a couple of e-mails that has been forwarded on and on...

I guess they truly don't want me in their life now... they truly want to throw me away and not be my friends anymore.

I don't know what to do when 20th November comes.. the day all of us are suppose to get together to welcome back our best friend who's coming home from Auckland. All of us were invited to come to KLIA and give a warm welcome home to him... all of us including them. But they don't seem to want to be there. I dunno. If they are there.. how should I react? Like I've never met them before? Like an old friend? or like an enemy/threat to them?

This is sad... this is very sad. Thank God that my mind is occupied with all the things I need to settle now.. at least I don't think about them much.

Presentations & silly people

Two presentations done... 4 more to go... giler ah... i could go cuckoo any second with all these assignments and tests and presentations. But i will prevail!!!


By the way.. recently, I was talking to a few of my friends, and I told them how busy my schedule was having taken MBA. Which is in fact true.. I hardly have the time to go out that much now.. but yeah, I guess that's the sacrifice I've gotta go through when I put myself in MBA, right? So my intentions of letting my friends know was for them to merely listen and understand why I'm so busy and have little time for them now. Then adela sipolan2 ni.. whom said "Tulaaaa... siapa suruh u amik MBA.. kan dah bising2!!"

Lg satu bengang bile I kate I xcukup duit n stuff kalo nk spend as lavish as I did mase kerja dulu... itupun derang kate the same thing "Tulaa.. dulu dah elok ade gaji.. duit banyak.. skrg dah quit.. budget2 plak..." Dude... dah jd student kot... lain la kalo aku ni anak millionaire ke billionaire ke... bleh kot nk spend gile2... I'm matured enough already to think that I have to budget myself nowadays.. especially when I'm a student now.

What d hell? Who are you to say that? I mmg nk amik MBA and I know what the consequences are of it... so just because i don't have time to go out with you guys or even contact you guys, xyah la nk ckp camtu... ingat senang ke what we're going through? Budus tul... I just bgtau jer yg I penat n stuff.. yela.. mmg stressful n what not.. and of course.. sape yg x bising kan??? but to have a friend or family to say that to you makes it all worse.. it's as if kite ni buat bende yg membebankan diri sendiri... je.. or dlm erti kate lain.. cari pasal.

Excuse me.. sekurang2nya I'm one step ahead of you... I busy ke ape ke.. when I graduate with my MBA.. I'm better off kot.. and I'll prove it to you guys! I will!!! Yg sebenaryne.. some ppl are just jealous of kelebihan org lain.

P/S: this is intended to those yg kate bende2 tu kat I je.. yg xde ckp ape2.. or yg menyokong I amik MBA.. xyah terase.. kroang are the best in terms of the support and understanding you guys gave me...

Never Again...

Would have given up my life for you guess it's true what they say about love it's blind
Boy you lied straight to my face looking in my eyes
and I believed you causeI loved you more than life and all you had to do was apologize
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
you don't care that you hurt me and
now I'm half the man that I used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough my heart may never mend but you'll never get to love me again

Sadness has me at the end of the line helpless watched you break this heart of mine
and loneliness only wants you back here with me
common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
and all you had to do was apologize and mean it
You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand you don't care that you hurt me and now
I'm half the man that I used to be when it was you and me
you didn't love me enough my heart may never mend but you'll never get to love me again

Wish like hell I could go back in time
maybe then I could see how forgiveness says that I should give you one more try but it's too late it's over now
You didn't say you're sorry I don't understand
you don't care that you hurt me andnow
I'm half the man that I used to be when it was you and me you didn't love me enough
my heart may never mend but you'll never get to love me again

Chentan Cintan...

Bosan dgr pasal chenta2 ni... Menyampah pun ade. Sometimes xlarat nk advice or dgr my friends complaint about their relationship and what not.

Tapi.. deep in my heart... teringin nak rase chenta balik.. chenta yg xterhingga that makes u grin without realising and makes your heart soar high up in the air. I believe now that if u love somebody and u respect that someone.. you'd go through all lentghs to be beside that person.. not infront, not at the back.. but just there beside him and go through the rough n toughness of life together. Tolerance and understanding... and excepting weaknesses of each other and building up those weaknesses into strentgh is what brings the best out of a relationship. I have yet to get the opportunity to experience that now and apply what I've learnt through other people into mine.

The guy of my heart is coming... not so sure when he'll arrive though. Maybe in November or December when I can start thinking more clearly. Yeah.. make it December la.. ngehehehe.. Aminnnn...

Cait...

I just noticed that at least 3 of my previous post was about my assignments... sah-sah aku dah gile... besok tuka topic please... bosan uhh!!!

bg topic korang.. bagi, bagi.. kite membebel pasal bende lain...

Bluerrghhh...

Periods, cramps, headaches, tests, assignments, presentations.. a true October Tragedy... or bak kate Bee, nk nyanyi lagu ni "Wake me up.. when October ends".. hahaha

Xlarat woo... a person can only take in too much before they start to babble away and merepek. 21 assignments, tests n presentations all within 5 weeks...

Kopi O... Nadeeya Macho... Coca-Cola Seven Up, come on Nadeeya, don't give up!!!
(maser bile tah I macho.. I'm hot ok!!! Hahahaha...)

Hopefully this is all worth it at the end... hopefully I can pass with flying colours.. hopefully all my classmates pun bleyh pass with flying colours so that I could get the same awesome classmates next semester (minus pakcik berjanggut dan suke tunjuk bulu dada tu.. eewww.. annoying la die skrg...)




I want a boyfriend!!! Lalala~