A day at the Hospital...

Hospitals freak out a lot of people... Including me sometimes..

The smell of medicine and disinfectants linger simultaneously around the hospital, as soon as we step in...

One thing for sure, kalo I tgh anxious kat hospital.. I usually go to the maternity ward n look at babies... Then i okla.. Sbb tgk all the cute babies sleeping in their trolley bed... wraped with blankets... Usually pink for girls n blur for boys... Geram je tgk the babies kan... Hehe...

Hospital food... Bluekkhhh... X sedap!!! Owh but Damansara Specialist has one of the nicest cafeteria food... Nasi lemak die... Aiyooo... Sedap!!! Hahaha...

By d way, I'm at Tawakal Hospital now.. Visiting my Auntie Teh. She went thru some minimal surgery to remove n clean the dead skin cells on her leg. She has diabeties... So it infected her leg.. Plus.. my auntie ni x berpantang sgt.. So trok la gak sakit die tu...

Nenek pun ikut sama.. Mommy gi jumpe auntie's doctor to bincang about whether my auntie can go umrah or not this coming June. I'm here stuck in the hospital ward.. Looking after my auntie as well as nenek.. Hahaha...

Td her IV Tube tercabut in the toilet.. So the toilet penuh darah.. N because I xtahan nk tunggu the cleaner dtg.. N because bau darah tu pun xmenyenangkan... So I cuci the bathroom.. Nasib baik I can stand the sight of blood... Dah abih cuci, I dah rest semue.. Br the cleaner nk dtg. Sabar jela...

Till then...

Come and go...

I knew that something like this will eventually happen... it always happens... it's called a circle of life...

Friends... you are soooo close one day, and eventually at one point.. we make our own paths... we reduce the amount of time we communicate with each other, see each other and keep in touch with each other...

It usually happens when there's a start of a career or a relationship... all goes haywire... the promise of friends forever or being there for each other when one is in need, often fades away with time.

Often we see, and I myself experience.. and am experiencing, is that we expect the other person to initiate the 1st move, to ask how that other person is, to see that person. If that person doesn't make the 1st move, neither do we... and in the end, nobody initiate's anything. That's when the bond loosens up.

There are those, that because of the start of a new career or relationship, they are surrounded by influences that they somehow adapt to, that the other friends can't accept or relate to.. then there's the "You've changed" issue... and again, the bond loosens...

I am lucky that in some ways, I am independent and am used to things like this, of people coming and going, some taking years... some, even days... I don't sulk on it too much... A lot of emotional turmoil and the feeling of loneliness looms over you at 1st.. then it slowly fades away and you move on with your life, getting to know other people, making new acquaintances and friends and love.

However, those who stay from the very start, are those that we should keep close... those are the ones, that even when the bond is not as tight, somehow, someway, that person or that group of people are the ones who really support you and is there for you, silently if not soundly.

It's a way of life... it's a circle of live... of the survival through it all... of weighing good and bad, right and wrong, being strong or being weak... in the end, it is all up to ourselves in how we are to manage this circle... be it a perfect circle... or a distorted one...

Words of wise woman...

Nenek and Mommy's words on how a woman either married or not, should act, kept me thinking...

Wanita adelah Wanita... woman power is good... but only to a certain limit... because, anda Wanita... it is mentioned in the Quran...

We still need to respect those around us... and, take good care of ourselves, the way we talk, tingkah laku, pertururan, walau setinggi mana education kita, setinggi mana pangkat kita, kita tetap wanita, and kite kena jaga tingkah laku kita sebagai wanita, kalau nak dihormati sebagai wanita...

Doesn't mean we have to show we're weak... being iron ladies, powerful ladies... is good... so that people don't take us for granted... but at a certain point, it stops there... because we are what people call woman, we need to take one step back behind others.

Mungkin ramai yg x setuju dgn these things... but this is an opinion of those people i respect the mst... everyone has their different opinion... negative, positive... each idea, each thought, each word, needs to be treated with respect.

I will ponder on this... I have pondered on this a long time... I have taken the necessary steps, though I still think there are a lot of things I could improve on... A LOT!!!

Not again...

Malasnye nak layan bende2 mcm ni...

I nk ikut Cikgu Fathi AF ckp:

"We're human beings, it's ok to breakdown and cry, but the next day, you got to pick up yourself and go"

Top 10 List of things I want/need for 2nd Half of 2009

Here it goes, in no particular order:

1. Duit... $$$
2. Nikon Camera Lens
3. To lose the intended 20kg by end of this year...
4. Dresses.. flowy ones... or those nice shirts I saw in Zara...
5. A new digital camera... not SLR, since I already have that.. but a normal digi camera... say sumwhere 8mp and above with 3 x optical zoom and above and "ini camera aaa... kalo u ada sakit parkinson pun boleh amik gambar steady punya ooo" kind of camera... hahahaha.
6. A desktop, wide screen...
7. Handbag... possibly white or brown... or blue...
8. More & more shoes!!!
9. A boyfriend... a serious one...
10. A road trip around the peninsular...

Habis sudaahhh...

Habis sudah masaku di bank itu... lalalala..

It has ben a wonderful journey, I must say... though there were many up and downs throughout my one year career there. Many of happy moments, angry moments, boring moments and unforgettable moments.

I'd miss the customers calling me 'Your Highness'... hhahaha
I'd miss certain unwanted sounds... eeeewww... hahaahaha

What I won't miss is the dissapointment I went thru, when I transffered to a new department... a place where I never signed up to.. a place of whereI was unsure of where I was heading too... I'm a people person.. and definetly not a computer person...

I work well with people.. even though some customers are rellentlesly impossible to work with.. I don't work well with facing the computer 24/7... though I did my job well, analysuing anddoing statistics, but I didn't enjoy it... the sens of accomplishment is small compared to when I was working as a Junior Relationship Manager...

Some people say that my communcation n cooperation with the sales staffs is people relations as well... but I guess it's not the same...
Plus... My allowances were cut.. but the cost of me travelling was higher...

The only thing I was glad of were the friends I got to make... those were really enjoyable moments for me.

This is one of the main reasons of me leaving... must I mention the slight notions of discrimination?? Maybe I'll leave that as undisclosed...

Then came my opportunity to study... with me being tired of the company... and my eagerness to pursue my studies... this was a chance I could not miss.

I've applied a few universities... and I'll get my answers in mid may... so we see how it goes...

Batuk...

Help!!!

I have been having a bad cough for a week now... well.. more likely for 2 weeks... I've taken so many medications, but it still hasn't stop...

What other options do I have?? Huhuhu...

Let see... these are the things I've been doing:

1. Doctor's medicine...
2. Woods Peppermint
3. Hurix's Gamat & Madu cough medicine
4. Strepsils drops
5. Dequadin drops
6. Hot tea with lemon and honey
7. Hot tea with lemon
8. Hot tea with ginger
9. Hot water
10. 100 plus yg x sejuk..
11. Soft ice cream that supposedly soothens the throat...


Any other options?? Huhu... x larat dah ni..

Eh...

Biar betul??? Almost one month I couldn't blog, because I couldn't open this website.. skali bleh plak skarang... hehehe.. bestnyaa!!!

Anyway... Officially, I have tendered my resignation at OCBC last 2 weeks.. which means that I have another 2 weeks left at the bank before I say bubbye...

TAK SABARNYA!!! Hahaha.. one, because, I could continue my studies... another is because I dah lepas dr a place that wasn't in my heart anymore...

Kelmarin rase mcm banyak jer nak blog.. tp xleh nk bukak the site.. skrg dah bukak the site... xtau nk blog ape plak... hahahahahah....

Till then..

My sayang laptop... Like duhhh...

Dear everyone... Whoever that reads my blog...

My laptop is nuts.. N i haven't got d time to service n reformat the pc... At the current moment, everytime i try to go to this site, all these alien codes come out... Bodo tul... Which is why i haven't blog for quite sometime...

I'm actually killing myself using my hp to open my blog.. One, because its freaking pushing my phone bill, even though i subsribe to the net, and two.. My jari sgt la susah nk tekan all these small buttons for a long time.. Lenguh tauu...

I miss blogging.. There is soooo much i want to say... I think everytime i do want to blog, i have to use my mom's lappy... Sigh...

So mind me for not blogging for quite sometime... Miss you princessdee2!! Huhuhu...

Penat...

Work has been tiring this past few days...
My gym routine has been tiring...
My sleep is not constant...
And now... ade plak org nk menambahkan lg my already not so good week...
Please... I don't need this now... seriously... I understand your place.. but I don't need you to merajuk like this, when all I need is a peace of mind form all the rush going through...

Penatla... seriously... sampai bile nk bg they paham... I'm 26 years old!!! I'm no longer that little girl...

Haihhh.... Penat... I need time alone... but I know now is not the right time.. nanti mesti lg huru hara...

Penat.... :(

I miss you...

I am deeply missing you...

Who??

I don't know... I'm just missing someone or something that I'm not quite sure of...

Snowpuff

Snowpuff died just now around 5pm... Bless him... He will be deeply missed...

OMG!! I am sooo going to miss my cat.. kecik2 dulu die suke sgt sleep in my room.. on my bed.. n mesti kat muke I.. so when I turn, muke I kat muke die or ekor die.. pastu die purr kuat2.. I'm going to miss him tergolek2 kat my kaki when I come near him... He will be sorely missed...

R.I.P. Snowpuff 2005-Feb 2009