Reconciliation...

We reconciled.. err.. is that how u spell it??

We talked it over... told each other that if we can't understand each other and be there for each other, then it would be better to not be around each other. But after a few negotiations.. haha.. we agreed to give it another go and try our best to work it out yet again. I guess we sayang each other that we just hate to loose each other even though we don't get each other a lot times... and on his side, being freaking busy with work to even notice any other things like his family n his friends n me. Which is bad.. but he needs to learn, and I'll be there to help. And I need to learn to loosen up.. a lot! and let things go with the flow.

We'll see how it goes. I'm hoping and praying for the best for us. We're taking baby steps to move into a better relationship position.

Love u Incik.

My MIS Blog

Was suppose to type a 500 word article and ended up with a 1,600 words essay. Sigh.. I don't know why I always get carried away when I blog. No wonder la I jarang blogging.. coz THIS is what happens... anyway, hopefully my blog is acceptable la.. if not, I would have to do another one. Though I'd probably be happy to do so. Haha...

Blogging and exposing myself to the world...

I in between writing a blog for my MIS assignment and doing this. My tajuk:
Social Networking: The good, the bad... my personal experience and that of those around me.

Yep.. exactacatly (ikut cara Tigger cakap)... so it's more of like how social networking has brought us down the social circle, or up.. or round n round.. however you want to go through it la kan.


Ngahaha.. wish me luck. Will be linking my post on the mba page to this page.. so might end up with a few followers along the way... Hellooooo classmates!!! Now my world is open to yours!!! you can start gossiping about me like it's nobody's business... (sheesh... maybe i should put this blog as invitation only...)

Anyways.. wish me luck. After this.. 2 more exams to go.. and then.. berjimba wamba time!! Woot-woot!!!

Braces off...

After 20 months of enduring gigi besi.. my patience have finally paid off, when today... was the day, when I took off my braces.. hihihi!!! And the dentist was singing Zee Avi songs all the time during the removal of my braces. haha!!!

But then, I have to wear a retainer, which I think is much more uncomfortable.. I slurr when i talk.. and I can't eat with it.. I have to open it when I eat. And I have to wear this for 6 months at least. Sheesh... so that'll be a total of 26 months!!! Haihhh... But I guess I'll take it off when I'm out dating or lepaking or for functions n stuff... owh.. n especially presentations!

Glad to know that my teeth are pretty now.. no more potruding teeth... and teeth marks on my lower lips. I love my teeth!!!

I'll post a picture here of the new braceless me, once I manage to take better pictures.

Mmuahx!

Dear you...

Incik...

I often wonder if you ever read this? If u even care about me n the life I live...
Sometimes I wonder if you do love me.. or it's just for the sake of having someone by your side when you're lonely and need someone to talk with.

I often wonder if you think about me when you do your work.. or is something else in your mind?

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice for choosing you.. when in return, I don't really feel loved by you. Yes, when we meet.. you do treat me like a princess. But when we're not together, when you're indulged with your own life... you treat me like a piece of nothing. What is my worth to you, I often wonder?

I hope one, when this is over, that you realise that you made a mistake for not taking the time to be with me when I need you the most... when you feel the lost of not having me in your life.

I hope one day you realise that what you lack was the simple key of showing your appreciation on me.. and because of that... you lost me.

I hope one day you change your ways and show the woman you say you love... that you really love her and u mean what u say.

For now.. I'm still waiting for that change... but I'm not sure for how long my heart can wait.. because each day you become distant from me.. the feelings fade away... let's just hope the feelings aren't lost... or it'll be that day that you regret that you didn't spend a little more time for me.

This is a public confession, because its hard to talk to you personally about this. Plus no one knows who Mr. H is.. it could be just about anyone.

Wombat

Nope.. this post has nothing to do with that animal... Though Wombat is very cuddly looking.

Anyways... it's the time of the year again, where our heads get all filled up with sooo many assignments, presentations and tests that you don't even bother to learn anything else. It's a cycle we students go through.. a double take for us Masters students. And the same words come out of our mouth everytime the semester comes to it's 3rd Month: I'm tired!! Stressnyeee!!! Gila la camni!!! I rase nk mati!!! Nk muntah assignments please!!! And the grunts and whines and moods come tumbling down like a huge avalanche in Antartic Mountains.

4 weeks of hair pulling, eye popping, head aching, stock-exchange-mood stumbles to go through. Then another one in October... before we finally call it an end to our survival in MBA. So help me God!!!

This is a Wombat, in case anyone was wondering how it looked like. I just knew myself that THIS is a Wombat. Hahahahaha...

And this is me now... so be careful

Whoopiiiieeee!!!

I laike my new blog background!!! Hihihi...

Have to say thanks to Winna coz I found the link to this blog background editor from her page. Yeaaayyy..

Pondering

I've given lotsa lotsa thought bout this...
I just don't wanna fight anymore.. not that we do fight..

Coz, I'm the one being angry and what not.. when the other party isn't keeping any grudges at all. Just lack of enthusiasm of some sort in the texting n calling area... and also lack of emotional feelings that we girls have plenty off.. sometimes too much.

Guys.. they just don't get the whole idea of texting or calling their girl back.. it's plain typical..

I've done plenty of interviews on my friends as well as research on the internet (yes people.. I am THAT rajin to study about the brain of men.. haha!!).

So there's a few options.. One is to keep silent mode.. giving him a taste of their own medicine... and they'll probably try to communicate with you back.. because they's be curious/worried and whatnot. Those who don't do that.. well.. then they're plain jerks.

Another is to give your guy the benefit of the doubt... and let loose. It's in our genes to call and text our guys frantically.. and sometimes all they need is space from us.. and we should have our own space as well.

And if our guy is really busy with work, and all stressed out..., not texting them back or being angry at them for not texting us or calling us.. is just a waste of time, coz it'll risen their stress level of some sort.

So the best thing to do is just reduce the number of txt messages u give them.. and when you do.. let it be of a calm nature.. or something that will make them smile or laugh.. to help easen their tension with work. It'll help our own self too in some ways y'know... and always give them support. Who knows.. it could also turn a new leaf into your men. haha!!

Yeah.. don't trust guys 100%... but don't - not trust them at all.. or you shouldn't be in a relationship at all if u can't trust your guy at some point. One point taken.. at least he does call or text you at some point of the day.. and when he find time to go out with you.. he makes sure your date with him is worthwhile.

I'm being his side-kick now... and cheerleader, as well as personal psychologist and motivator. hahaha...

Love u baby.

♥

What I wanted was to be loved and to feel in love and to feel that someone loves me. What I got is something different.

What I wanted was a person whom would fall head over heels for me and be there for me and know what I'm up to and tells me what they're up to. What I got was something different.

What i want was something different from what I had previously, what I got was something different.. something almost the same with what started my whole heartbreak in the beginning.

Now I'm beginning to ponder whether the move I took was a right one.. and whether I should back out now before something bad happens, or should I suck it all in and hope that when things cool down, it'll be better. Pure patience would be needed, or else, I'll fall...

What I want is love, to love and to be loved in return.

Uuuu... Tough!!!

Bought a new camera... U tough.. 3m underwater safe, shock resistant.. I laikkeeee... and bought it with me own money... so no one make noise. My money, I'll do whatever I like.. plus my parents pun bg green light to buy it whattt... muahahaha!!!

I love Uuuu Tough!!! And it's red!!!

All the single ladies

All the single ladies,
all the single ladies...
now put your hands up!!!

Alaaaa... now I can't put my hands up anymore.. but I can say this:
If you like it then u shoulda put a ring on it...
Hahahahahaa~

Sigh.. sometimes I do feel that I am still single.. kinda lonely this past few weeks.. he's preoccupied with his work n the launching by April of their 1st season, etc, etc... we'll see how it goes... I miss him dearly... 5 weeks more before his bday.. wonder what I should get him.. any hints? I dah 4 thn xbg present to a guy.. as in a bf.. hahaha.. so still kinda blur on that category.

Saya rindu awak Incik!!!

When u're left out...

Don't get me wrong bout this.. Not that I'm not happy that my friends are getting married, one by one.. I am.. I'm extremely happy!!! But when it comes to having u being the only one NOT getting hitched and everyone around you talking about weddings and marriage life and kids.. you kinda get tired and bored. Especially when everyone else have no other questions to ask to you, except "When's your turn?? soon enough we hope"... I politely smile, give a nod and say "InsyaAllah"

Don't know when the big day is for me.. don't even know who I'll be getting married with. But I do know this.. I wanna get married before I turn 30. yeah.. better late than never I say. 3 years to go.. not much time left... *panic mode*

I can't tell my friends to shut up and change topic.. because who am I to stop them from talking all enthusiastically about their marriage to the one they love. That would just seem plain selfish. Well, one good thing is that I can get too see how everyone plans their weddings, who they go to for the planning, the theme, the dress and all sort of stuff. Gives me a good idea on what to do and what not to do for my wedding when it comes... InsyaAllah.

Owh.. and I do know this.. I want hydrangea's for my wedding. Purple and blue ones.. white ones are nice too.

Till the day comes.. all I can do is dream.. dream.. dream...