Falling in love all over again

This song is for the both of us... Let's Just fall in love again~

I want to fall in love all over again with him. It would be beautiful...

Incik... this one's for US.

P/S: And Jason Castro is sooo comel here... *drool*

U...

I realise that, after things I've seen and heard, I appreciate you even more. You may be pre-occupied with work, but when you're with me, we respect each other and you treat me like a princess. I appreciate for having you in my life. I Thank God for getting to know you and sticking with you through our hard times. Love u.

Crapping

Harini i feel a bit rajin to blog... this is the 4th blog for the day, including the John Lennon video.

Well.. for now.. there's a few things I need to get out of my chest realll badly... banyak bende.. so they don't actually link to one another... well, some do.. most of them do. Here it goes:

• I may look soft spoken and seldom raise my voice.. but don't let me go to my dark side.. you'd never like it and neither would I. I can throw tantrums like it's nobody's business.
• There are some people whom are just plain suck face... puji org non stop.. like we don't know what they're trying to get at.. meluat.
• Since Friday, I had 3 supposedly important dates that had to be canceled due to unforseen circumstances. I don't like it.. But I'll just have to face it.
• I may be open minded, but when it comes to something against religion, like hubungan sejenis.. there's a certain limit how those people should act in public.. I am ok with these people as friends.. I really am.. but you don't need to show how 'gay' you are in public. It can get a bit annoying sometimes.
• I will not reveal who my boyfriend is at the moment, not until we're 100% official. For now it's half way through. Don't ask me why. But I can say this. He works with this online automobile review company and we've been dating for over 5 months now. I call him Incik.. most of my friends might now his real name.. or his nickname M or A. He's younger than me, but age is not a barrier for our relationship.
• When it comes to a relationship. I fight my way through for the guy I love.
• When I don't have the heart to do something.. then don't force me to do it. It'll just make things worse.
• If I had the chance to spend all day, everyday with Incik I would... would get married with him if we could.
• I do believe in jodoh di tangan Tuhan... but we have to make it work endlessly. If it still fails, at least we've tried our best.
• Do not call me a spoilt rich kid, because I'm not... If I was one, I'd have Manolo Blahnik Shoes, Chanel Handbags, the latest gadgets(like Ipad) by now. Even my car is the cheapest imported 4wd around. But I love Baby Schatzy.. especially good during hujan lebat n banjir times.
• I hate when people say "Untung org yg dpt u nanti... u anak org kaya" WTF??? Is that person a gold digger to start off with?
• I get annoyed when people say" U senanggg... u xde ni, ni ni... u ade ni, ni, ni" Well, if u want it or don't want it.. then work for it. Don't simply say things like that.
• I also get annoyed when people say "Alaa... u nk ke pegi tempat2 mcm ni? Pakai barang2 mcm ni??.. U kan high standard" Again.. wtf? u don't know me well.. so don't judge me like that. Refer to the 'spoilt rich kid" point.
• I will continue crapping in this blog tomorrow or after I come back from my holidays, because for now, I'm sleepy.

Nite2.

Life Lesson

Life is to short to wake up with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right.

Believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a second chance, grab it with both your hands.

If it changes your life, let it.

Kiss Slowly.

Forgive quickly.

God never said life would be easy.

He just promised it would be worth it.

Fishes!!!

Like I don't have real fishes to deal with (20 koi's), I had to take in a few fishes in my blog as well...

Give them food!!! Just drag your mouse n click in the pond to release fish food. Owh.. the fishies are on the lower right hand corner of my blog..

Hereeeeeee fishy fishyyyy...!!!

Imagine

Felt like listening to this song...


Love this quote:

"You may say I'm a dreamer... But I'm not the only one"

In the shoes...

Was helping mom with some work... when out of a sudden, it hit me... I used to be in a place that I was sooo occupied with work thay I didn't have time for anything else. And when I did have time, it was spent laying around watching tv or sleeping.. my time. This especially happened at the early stages of my career life where I was still learning to juggle work n social life... it never ended though.. went straight up to my 1 year anniversary of a career lady.

Got me thinking, of how things are between me n Incik. He's going through the same situation I was in previously and I'm being a prick about it. I'm not giving excuses on his behalf, but I'm talking based on my own experience.. though I did manage to squeeze in lunch or dinner with my family n friends... well, ladies are just better of in multi-tasking then men are.. we have an advantage on that. Men don't...

Student life, even though much more hectic than working life at some point, we still have time to ponder n linger around.. and procrastinate alot.. but once you start working.. that's it. Especially when u're not married and don't have any children.. Work becomes a priority, much more than anything else...

So it puts me to believe that I need to loosen up a little and don't snap at the small things that don't go my way. At least there's someone who loves you and whom you love in return...

Reconciliation...

We reconciled.. err.. is that how u spell it??

We talked it over... told each other that if we can't understand each other and be there for each other, then it would be better to not be around each other. But after a few negotiations.. haha.. we agreed to give it another go and try our best to work it out yet again. I guess we sayang each other that we just hate to loose each other even though we don't get each other a lot times... and on his side, being freaking busy with work to even notice any other things like his family n his friends n me. Which is bad.. but he needs to learn, and I'll be there to help. And I need to learn to loosen up.. a lot! and let things go with the flow.

We'll see how it goes. I'm hoping and praying for the best for us. We're taking baby steps to move into a better relationship position.

Love u Incik.

My MIS Blog

Was suppose to type a 500 word article and ended up with a 1,600 words essay. Sigh.. I don't know why I always get carried away when I blog. No wonder la I jarang blogging.. coz THIS is what happens... anyway, hopefully my blog is acceptable la.. if not, I would have to do another one. Though I'd probably be happy to do so. Haha...

Blogging and exposing myself to the world...

I in between writing a blog for my MIS assignment and doing this. My tajuk:
Social Networking: The good, the bad... my personal experience and that of those around me.

Yep.. exactacatly (ikut cara Tigger cakap)... so it's more of like how social networking has brought us down the social circle, or up.. or round n round.. however you want to go through it la kan.


Ngahaha.. wish me luck. Will be linking my post on the mba page to this page.. so might end up with a few followers along the way... Hellooooo classmates!!! Now my world is open to yours!!! you can start gossiping about me like it's nobody's business... (sheesh... maybe i should put this blog as invitation only...)

Anyways.. wish me luck. After this.. 2 more exams to go.. and then.. berjimba wamba time!! Woot-woot!!!

Braces off...

After 20 months of enduring gigi besi.. my patience have finally paid off, when today... was the day, when I took off my braces.. hihihi!!! And the dentist was singing Zee Avi songs all the time during the removal of my braces. haha!!!

But then, I have to wear a retainer, which I think is much more uncomfortable.. I slurr when i talk.. and I can't eat with it.. I have to open it when I eat. And I have to wear this for 6 months at least. Sheesh... so that'll be a total of 26 months!!! Haihhh... But I guess I'll take it off when I'm out dating or lepaking or for functions n stuff... owh.. n especially presentations!

Glad to know that my teeth are pretty now.. no more potruding teeth... and teeth marks on my lower lips. I love my teeth!!!

I'll post a picture here of the new braceless me, once I manage to take better pictures.

Mmuahx!

Dear you...

Incik...

I often wonder if you ever read this? If u even care about me n the life I live...
Sometimes I wonder if you do love me.. or it's just for the sake of having someone by your side when you're lonely and need someone to talk with.

I often wonder if you think about me when you do your work.. or is something else in your mind?

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice for choosing you.. when in return, I don't really feel loved by you. Yes, when we meet.. you do treat me like a princess. But when we're not together, when you're indulged with your own life... you treat me like a piece of nothing. What is my worth to you, I often wonder?

I hope one, when this is over, that you realise that you made a mistake for not taking the time to be with me when I need you the most... when you feel the lost of not having me in your life.

I hope one day you realise that what you lack was the simple key of showing your appreciation on me.. and because of that... you lost me.

I hope one day you change your ways and show the woman you say you love... that you really love her and u mean what u say.

For now.. I'm still waiting for that change... but I'm not sure for how long my heart can wait.. because each day you become distant from me.. the feelings fade away... let's just hope the feelings aren't lost... or it'll be that day that you regret that you didn't spend a little more time for me.

This is a public confession, because its hard to talk to you personally about this. Plus no one knows who Mr. H is.. it could be just about anyone.