Nde Devi kirim kan 6 boxes of my fav Teh Botol (in a box) from Medan... I'm in heaven!!!.. Mekasih Nde Devi...
Nyum Nyum Nyum...
Monday, June 30, 2008
Phrases and quotes of the week...
This past few days.. I keep on getting amusing phrases and quotes from my family members.. peribahasa yg x pernah di dengar and so on.. dok gelakkk je keja... here are a few..
"Ayam dilepas, tangan bau taik ayam" - Nenek
Meaning: That someone terlepas, tapi name kita dah buruk..
"Dah takde jodoh... musang tak sampai2" - Daddy
Meaning: Errr.. daddy got it all wrong actually.. the musang is actually suppose to be a kumbang.. hahahahaha! Daddy, daddy... suke buat peribahasa sendiri..
"What I've always wanted to do before I die, is sing in front of an audience. Maybe I'll translate a whole song in French, sing it in front of everyone, frightened them all, then die." - Tok Tun
" Where is this?? Is this near my place? I don't even know where we are... ahh, yes, this is near my place.. I can smell my home from here" - Tok Tun, when we sent her
home after the wedding.
Tok Tun (again) said this when she saw the sexy wedding singer wearing a striped pink and black tubed flare dress: "Wow, I'm gonna get something like this for my graduation, and scare the hell out of my lecturers" (and Tok Tun is 81 yrs old!!!)
When asked, whether Mommy was a Queen Control, by my uncle and auntie, my dad replied "Nyawa!!!"
"Ayam dilepas, tangan bau taik ayam" - Nenek
Meaning: That someone terlepas, tapi name kita dah buruk..
"Dah takde jodoh... musang tak sampai2" - Daddy
Meaning: Errr.. daddy got it all wrong actually.. the musang is actually suppose to be a kumbang.. hahahahaha! Daddy, daddy... suke buat peribahasa sendiri..
"What I've always wanted to do before I die, is sing in front of an audience. Maybe I'll translate a whole song in French, sing it in front of everyone, frightened them all, then die." - Tok Tun
" Where is this?? Is this near my place? I don't even know where we are... ahh, yes, this is near my place.. I can smell my home from here" - Tok Tun, when we sent her
home after the wedding.
Tok Tun (again) said this when she saw the sexy wedding singer wearing a striped pink and black tubed flare dress: "Wow, I'm gonna get something like this for my graduation, and scare the hell out of my lecturers" (and Tok Tun is 81 yrs old!!!)
When asked, whether Mommy was a Queen Control, by my uncle and auntie, my dad replied "Nyawa!!!"
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Jom tido...
Just got back from rehearsals.. this week, 3 hari turut2 balik after 8pm... byk keje lagi.. then, harini rehearsal... besok the real stuff for A. Aida's wedding...
Gigi masih x comfy.. nxt thursday dah nk pasang braces... mesti makan pun xleh.. tension plak rasenye... huhuhu...
OMG!!! Penatnyaaaa!!! All I wanna do is sleeepp, sleeeeppp and sleeeeepppp!!!
ZZZZzzzzZZzZZzzzzZZZZZzZZzzzzzZzzz..................
Gigi masih x comfy.. nxt thursday dah nk pasang braces... mesti makan pun xleh.. tension plak rasenye... huhuhu...
OMG!!! Penatnyaaaa!!! All I wanna do is sleeepp, sleeeeppp and sleeeeepppp!!!
ZZZZzzzzZZzZZzzzzZZZZZzZZzzzzzZzzz..................
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Ngaaaa!!!!
Banyak tul keje!!! Tak larat kengkadang.. but hey.. I put myself into this.. but I'm learning new things each day.. so I that's the upside of it all.. in a few mths time.. kalo stress lagi.. I'm not gonna quit, rather, nak mintak education leave.. ngehehehe...
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
A Tribute to my late Tok Azam & Tok Naung
Wasn’t in a good mood yesterday.. still have a bit of that feeling today. Then in the morning, everything was ok, until almost all of us got slammed by our boss.. must be a PMS or sumthin’2.. but she slammed us for a good reason though, coz we were unknowledeable on a few topics… haha.. padan muke.. but takkan nk understand semue bende in a few days kan .. Rome wasn’t build in a day. But I guess she eventually cooled off, because of muke blur kitorg.. tros die explain pelan2.. hehehe.
Anyway, a VIP came this afternoon, after lunch. Velda called me to come down from lunch asap, coz Adeline wanted to introduce him to all of us. So, when I came down, the PB Room was filled with people, plus 2 noticeable old guys.. who reminded me of my late Tok Azam. I sat down at my place, and while doing some work, got to hear the concversation the guests was having with Adeline. I overheard him talking about how in the old days he would go see horse races and stuff here n there, which caught my attention, coz Tok Azam used to like to do those stuff too.. plus that VIP seriously reminded me of him.
So as he was about to leave, I gave him my business card, and he asked which part of the royal family I was from, and I told him, Perak.. and he asked me a few other questions bout that side of the family. It was then which I asked, “Out of curiosity sir, do you happen to know my late grandfather, Dato Seri Raja Azam??” and he automatically replied with a hand gesture of a person taking a photo, and said.. yes, I know your grandfather.. he loves to take pictures and has a camera with him all the time. And he repeated the snapshot gesture… I smiled as widely as I could.
Then a huge smile went thru my face the whole time thinking about that.. even as I am typing this. I mean.. after all these years, ppl still remember Tok Azam.. and when mentioned him, they’ll remember Tok Naung as well.. as the ‘angel on earth with lotsa curls’ lady. Or 'the Beautiful one..'
It's still a suprise.. Tok Azam has past away for about 9 years now, and Tok Naung, left us 18 years ago, and people still remember them. There is still that sense of happiness from people when they mention both my late grandparents name. It's a suprise to see, how many lives they both touched during their years of living.
I remember Tok Azam to be a very stern and 'garang' grandpa.. but as the years went by, he became mellow and more loving. He took the initiative to get closer to his children and gradchildren, a thing he seldom did during his career life. I remember there was this one time, he tried to get one of the race horse he owned, for me.. but sadly, the horse was sold.. too late for negotiation. I remembered how even though how funny a joke was, all that came out from his mouth was "HEH!".. He didn't have a funny bone.. everyone was laughing like mad, but all tha came out from him was "HEH!"... Then there was a time when one of my cousin, Nazrin, died, just a few months prior to Tok Azam's death. Tok Azam was crying, wouldn't eat.. it was then where it showed how much he actually loved his grandchildren.
I was there, holding his feet, during the his few last breaths.. I could remember the sudden chill that went thru his legs, when he breathe his last breath, I could remember the face of my mom n my auntie at that exact moment... I could remember me running down, screaming to my cousin... saying "Tok Azam dah xdee..." and there was a wedding at the neigbours house.. it was a sad moment, though I had to say it was amusing to see, the guests from the wedding beside the house, suddenly changed faces, when they saw me screaming n running towards my cousin.. all of them stopped and sat still.. but the neigbours n the caterers were kind enough to make a last minute preparation of the kenduri for us that night.
I was never close to Tok Azam.... only a few years up to his death, when he started softening up, that me n my cousins were brave enough to get close to him. There were times, that even if we terlanggar kerusi.. we would almost cry, because we were afraid that he would scold us.. yeah.. he was that strict... but generous nevertheless..
I have a blurred memory of my times with Tok Naung... she died when I was 7, and I just came back from US then... so more the less, I only spend like 3 years of my life with her. But I remembered that she was of course, undeniably an angel on earth. She has never once scolded, yet alone raise her voice to any of her children as well as her grandchildren... There's a few times, from what I can remember, where If I was scolded by mommy, Tok Naung would actually defend me... I could though, remember the time when she started to get her first stroke, and a few months before that, when she came to sleep at our house during Puasa of 1990... she was admitted a week after that, because of the stroke and other diabetic complications.. and our Raya that year, was mostly spent in the hospital, until her dying day. I remembered that day clearly... me n momm was at home in Subang Jaya at that time.. having just resting after dinner. When mommy got a phone call from my uncle, who said that Tok Naung's condition was critical, and she should come to the hospital right away. Daddy was off shore, so Daddy's youngest sister, Auntie Zariah, and her husband came to pick us up. As soon as we arrived the hospital, it was too late. Tok Naung was gone.. Mommy was crying so much that time.. We just came back from the US for about 4 months, so mommy didn't really get the chance to 'hilangkan rasa manja' with Tok Naung.. that was what hurt her most I guess.. Almost everyone we knew cried when Tok Naung left us... she was someone everyone loved.. there was almost no one who hated her or envied her..
Mommy often told me, that a few months after her death, everytime I got a scolding from mommy, I would often cry and call Tok Naung's name, till I fell to sleep... That's when mommy felt guilty, and hurriedly 'pujuk' me..
Both Tok Azam and Tok Naung were great people... They've helped a lot of people, loved a lot of people, and made a lot of people into a successful, kind people they are today. Both of you will be remembered in our hearts. I miss you both dearly.. and I love u both...
Al-Fatihah to my late grandfather, Allahyarham Raja Azam (Tok Azam) and my late grandmother, Allahyarhamah Raja Fatimah (Tok Naung)... May they rest in peace, and be put into those whom Allah loves and forgives. InsyaAllah...
Anyway, a VIP came this afternoon, after lunch. Velda called me to come down from lunch asap, coz Adeline wanted to introduce him to all of us. So, when I came down, the PB Room was filled with people, plus 2 noticeable old guys.. who reminded me of my late Tok Azam. I sat down at my place, and while doing some work, got to hear the concversation the guests was having with Adeline. I overheard him talking about how in the old days he would go see horse races and stuff here n there, which caught my attention, coz Tok Azam used to like to do those stuff too.. plus that VIP seriously reminded me of him.
So as he was about to leave, I gave him my business card, and he asked which part of the royal family I was from, and I told him, Perak.. and he asked me a few other questions bout that side of the family. It was then which I asked, “Out of curiosity sir, do you happen to know my late grandfather, Dato Seri Raja Azam??” and he automatically replied with a hand gesture of a person taking a photo, and said.. yes, I know your grandfather.. he loves to take pictures and has a camera with him all the time. And he repeated the snapshot gesture… I smiled as widely as I could.
Then a huge smile went thru my face the whole time thinking about that.. even as I am typing this. I mean.. after all these years, ppl still remember Tok Azam.. and when mentioned him, they’ll remember Tok Naung as well.. as the ‘angel on earth with lotsa curls’ lady. Or 'the Beautiful one..'
It's still a suprise.. Tok Azam has past away for about 9 years now, and Tok Naung, left us 18 years ago, and people still remember them. There is still that sense of happiness from people when they mention both my late grandparents name. It's a suprise to see, how many lives they both touched during their years of living.
I remember Tok Azam to be a very stern and 'garang' grandpa.. but as the years went by, he became mellow and more loving. He took the initiative to get closer to his children and gradchildren, a thing he seldom did during his career life. I remember there was this one time, he tried to get one of the race horse he owned, for me.. but sadly, the horse was sold.. too late for negotiation. I remembered how even though how funny a joke was, all that came out from his mouth was "HEH!".. He didn't have a funny bone.. everyone was laughing like mad, but all tha came out from him was "HEH!"... Then there was a time when one of my cousin, Nazrin, died, just a few months prior to Tok Azam's death. Tok Azam was crying, wouldn't eat.. it was then where it showed how much he actually loved his grandchildren.
I was there, holding his feet, during the his few last breaths.. I could remember the sudden chill that went thru his legs, when he breathe his last breath, I could remember the face of my mom n my auntie at that exact moment... I could remember me running down, screaming to my cousin... saying "Tok Azam dah xdee..." and there was a wedding at the neigbours house.. it was a sad moment, though I had to say it was amusing to see, the guests from the wedding beside the house, suddenly changed faces, when they saw me screaming n running towards my cousin.. all of them stopped and sat still.. but the neigbours n the caterers were kind enough to make a last minute preparation of the kenduri for us that night.
I was never close to Tok Azam.... only a few years up to his death, when he started softening up, that me n my cousins were brave enough to get close to him. There were times, that even if we terlanggar kerusi.. we would almost cry, because we were afraid that he would scold us.. yeah.. he was that strict... but generous nevertheless..
I have a blurred memory of my times with Tok Naung... she died when I was 7, and I just came back from US then... so more the less, I only spend like 3 years of my life with her. But I remembered that she was of course, undeniably an angel on earth. She has never once scolded, yet alone raise her voice to any of her children as well as her grandchildren... There's a few times, from what I can remember, where If I was scolded by mommy, Tok Naung would actually defend me... I could though, remember the time when she started to get her first stroke, and a few months before that, when she came to sleep at our house during Puasa of 1990... she was admitted a week after that, because of the stroke and other diabetic complications.. and our Raya that year, was mostly spent in the hospital, until her dying day. I remembered that day clearly... me n momm was at home in Subang Jaya at that time.. having just resting after dinner. When mommy got a phone call from my uncle, who said that Tok Naung's condition was critical, and she should come to the hospital right away. Daddy was off shore, so Daddy's youngest sister, Auntie Zariah, and her husband came to pick us up. As soon as we arrived the hospital, it was too late. Tok Naung was gone.. Mommy was crying so much that time.. We just came back from the US for about 4 months, so mommy didn't really get the chance to 'hilangkan rasa manja' with Tok Naung.. that was what hurt her most I guess.. Almost everyone we knew cried when Tok Naung left us... she was someone everyone loved.. there was almost no one who hated her or envied her..
Mommy often told me, that a few months after her death, everytime I got a scolding from mommy, I would often cry and call Tok Naung's name, till I fell to sleep... That's when mommy felt guilty, and hurriedly 'pujuk' me..
Both Tok Azam and Tok Naung were great people... They've helped a lot of people, loved a lot of people, and made a lot of people into a successful, kind people they are today. Both of you will be remembered in our hearts. I miss you both dearly.. and I love u both...
Al-Fatihah to my late grandfather, Allahyarham Raja Azam (Tok Azam) and my late grandmother, Allahyarhamah Raja Fatimah (Tok Naung)... May they rest in peace, and be put into those whom Allah loves and forgives. InsyaAllah...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Gila!!!
Dear Blog,
Crazy night.. crazy, crazy, CRAZY night!!! Too much info for me to handle.. I think someone just hit the flush right above my head.. feel like flushing down the drainnn.... aaaaaahhhhhhh..... SPLASH!!! I think I need to drown myself to sleep..
Regards,
Nadeeya
Crazy night.. crazy, crazy, CRAZY night!!! Too much info for me to handle.. I think someone just hit the flush right above my head.. feel like flushing down the drainnn.... aaaaaahhhhhhh..... SPLASH!!! I think I need to drown myself to sleep..
Regards,
Nadeeya
Today, My Eyes...
Today I got an MC, because of an eye nfection.
I woke up this morning, groggy of course.. kate pun monday.. monday blues... dah mandi2, pakai baju semue.. just about to put on my make-up, when my eye rase gatal.. gosok la sket2 kan.., then gi tgk kat cermin.. amikkk.. my eyes were blood shot red... i quickly siap2 and went to the clinic.. called Yee Mei, my supervisor, saying that I would be late..
Waited for the doctor for half an hour.. but was the 1st person in, when she arrived.. hehe.. she asked me a few questions, and checked my eye.. and yeap, I had conjungtivitis.. i duno wether I spelled that correctly.. haha.. Then I asked.. "so, can I go to work??" She replied, "no, I'll be giving u an MC, and where sun glasses if you go out".. ok then.. to home I go back. Called Yee Mei, and we laughed.. pelik betul laa.. mesti ketawa kalo ckp ngan die.. haha.. then Yee Mei said ok, and bleh plak bercerita.. die gi crite that her daugher and husband pun tgh sakit mata, and she herself isn't feeling that well.
Tengah musim orang sakit...
So, dok la kat umah, slept 2 kali, tenghari skali, ptg skali.. watch 2 movies, Norbit and Harry & the Handersons. Nak log on to the net, modem buat hal.. the whole day.. skrg ni pun tgh pakai dial up yg lembab, mengalahkan kura2.. I tell you, If a turtle were to race with the dial up connection, the turtle would reach at least half an hour before the dial up sampai... slow poke..
Anyway, that's the story of my day at home today.. tomorrow, back to work.. gedamm... I know there's like sooo many things to do.. well, not actually a lot, but there's like 2 teleconference, 1 training (the other one was today, but since I'm on MC, so that's outta my list)... there's the online assesment test, which is due on the 27th, and of course the audits and the compiling of files and documents, yada, yada, yada.... and the daily routine of reports and term sheets and sales to be closed of course.
I've actually gotten use to all that.. and I'm proud to say, that I'm getting better at it by the minute. Just haven't had the confidence to do sales yet.. but I'm not expected to.. say that's alright.. no rush to do it, and no push from my supervisor n boss. Ngehehehe...
P/S: My eyes... tula.. gi lg intai Wan mandi.. Wan, gosok lebih2 sket kat blakang tu... owh.. n celah2 situ gak.. kalo x bersih gak.. nanti I dtg bersihkan... owwhhhh.. eeww.. ngahahahaha..
P/S/S: I want to go out and have some fun!!!! Dah more than a week melekat kat umah... bosannye!!! At least for a movie, or a dinner or like, a drink... puh-puhleeaaaassseeee!!!!
I woke up this morning, groggy of course.. kate pun monday.. monday blues... dah mandi2, pakai baju semue.. just about to put on my make-up, when my eye rase gatal.. gosok la sket2 kan.., then gi tgk kat cermin.. amikkk.. my eyes were blood shot red... i quickly siap2 and went to the clinic.. called Yee Mei, my supervisor, saying that I would be late..
Waited for the doctor for half an hour.. but was the 1st person in, when she arrived.. hehe.. she asked me a few questions, and checked my eye.. and yeap, I had conjungtivitis.. i duno wether I spelled that correctly.. haha.. Then I asked.. "so, can I go to work??" She replied, "no, I'll be giving u an MC, and where sun glasses if you go out".. ok then.. to home I go back. Called Yee Mei, and we laughed.. pelik betul laa.. mesti ketawa kalo ckp ngan die.. haha.. then Yee Mei said ok, and bleh plak bercerita.. die gi crite that her daugher and husband pun tgh sakit mata, and she herself isn't feeling that well.
Tengah musim orang sakit...
So, dok la kat umah, slept 2 kali, tenghari skali, ptg skali.. watch 2 movies, Norbit and Harry & the Handersons. Nak log on to the net, modem buat hal.. the whole day.. skrg ni pun tgh pakai dial up yg lembab, mengalahkan kura2.. I tell you, If a turtle were to race with the dial up connection, the turtle would reach at least half an hour before the dial up sampai... slow poke..
Anyway, that's the story of my day at home today.. tomorrow, back to work.. gedamm... I know there's like sooo many things to do.. well, not actually a lot, but there's like 2 teleconference, 1 training (the other one was today, but since I'm on MC, so that's outta my list)... there's the online assesment test, which is due on the 27th, and of course the audits and the compiling of files and documents, yada, yada, yada.... and the daily routine of reports and term sheets and sales to be closed of course.
I've actually gotten use to all that.. and I'm proud to say, that I'm getting better at it by the minute. Just haven't had the confidence to do sales yet.. but I'm not expected to.. say that's alright.. no rush to do it, and no push from my supervisor n boss. Ngehehehe...
P/S: My eyes... tula.. gi lg intai Wan mandi.. Wan, gosok lebih2 sket kat blakang tu... owh.. n celah2 situ gak.. kalo x bersih gak.. nanti I dtg bersihkan... owwhhhh.. eeww.. ngahahahaha..
P/S/S: I want to go out and have some fun!!!! Dah more than a week melekat kat umah... bosannye!!! At least for a movie, or a dinner or like, a drink... puh-puhleeaaaassseeee!!!!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Finally...
Welcome, welcome annnddddd welcome!!!
I have finally done a blogger page.. Well, I had one last time, but I didn't use it for almost a year, forgot the password, had a hard time reactivating it, and here I am doing a new one...
I won't be blogging in friendster anymore I guess.. sebab cam kat sini lg senang.. hehehe. anyways... have fun reading..
Hope I have time to update my blog from time to time...
Sweet!!
I have finally done a blogger page.. Well, I had one last time, but I didn't use it for almost a year, forgot the password, had a hard time reactivating it, and here I am doing a new one...
I won't be blogging in friendster anymore I guess.. sebab cam kat sini lg senang.. hehehe. anyways... have fun reading..
Hope I have time to update my blog from time to time...
Sweet!!
Feelings...
The more I think of it.. the more I think it's just something I shouldn't take so seriousl... or should I? Owh.. the things I have to think about.. the pros n cons... the ups n downs.. the happiness and the sadness...
Maybe it's a joke, maybe it's not.. maybe, more time is needed. But one thing for sure, I want an honest upfront answer.. no hiding.. I can't afford to hide anymore.. I can't afford to wait and suddenly loose it.. it's either I have something, or I loose it at an early phase, before things go haywire... I've done my part, I've said my part, or so I think... wonder if it's clear.. what I say...
Yes, I do want it.. and no, I'm not hesitating. This is the now. This is what I've been waiting for. But IF there is need of deeper, and more thorough thoughts and consideration, then I will respect that. But I need to know, where this is all going now...
Again.. Trying not to consider it too much.. but I can't help it... It's like almost every hour, there are things that happen round me that remind me of it... It's something serious... not something to take for granted.. not for me, that's for sure.
Maybe it's a joke, maybe it's not.. maybe, more time is needed. But one thing for sure, I want an honest upfront answer.. no hiding.. I can't afford to hide anymore.. I can't afford to wait and suddenly loose it.. it's either I have something, or I loose it at an early phase, before things go haywire... I've done my part, I've said my part, or so I think... wonder if it's clear.. what I say...
Yes, I do want it.. and no, I'm not hesitating. This is the now. This is what I've been waiting for. But IF there is need of deeper, and more thorough thoughts and consideration, then I will respect that. But I need to know, where this is all going now...
Again.. Trying not to consider it too much.. but I can't help it... It's like almost every hour, there are things that happen round me that remind me of it... It's something serious... not something to take for granted.. not for me, that's for sure.
Turning 25.. and loving it!!!
Posted 10th June 2008:
On the verge of me turning 25.. a quarter of a century old.. many suprising things happen... All, I must say, has changed me in some way.. and has actually even changed me into a better person.
I've began my career, started to earn my own money, pay my own bills, learning how to go pening kpale bile nk pikir nk bayar all the bills.. hahaha...
I've got my own car.. learnt how to be responsible with it.. Fill up the gas, don't get it schratched, pay the roadtax, top up the Touch n Go card, buy stuff for the car.. though I did get a 'new car' gift from Syaz.. a sign that says 'Very Important Princess On Board'.. hahaha.. Thanks Syaz..
Owh.. I've started to get verryyy busy with work, n starting to feel the stress.. one thing good is that, I don't bring the stress home.. Everything is left at work... Harini was soooo busy, I haven't even had time to go to the toilet!! Not until lunch time and the time mase nk balik tuu.. Hahahaha..
I err.. also got some news which unexpectedly kinda like.. how do u say... got me into a state of restlessness and wondering and excitement and terkejut-ness and happiness and worriness and err... hahaha... don't know how to put it into words laa.. Don't want to think about it too much.
Nothing is certain yet until it is certain.. until everything is actually assured n confirmed.. It is a matter of heart, soul and mind, which, in my opinion has to be carefully considered and thought off. Yeah.. I guess that's how u put it now..
I in fact have also made some of the bestest friends anyone could have.. U know who you guys are.. And I thank God for giving me the oppurtunity to get to know you guys better, and I appreciate every moment of it.. You guys may be new friends.. but you've carved your name.. or should I say tatooed your names, into my heart n mind. I love you guys... I love you even more...
Nevertheless, I have also went thru some turmoil.. but for me.. it was minor.. coz, yes, I did loose a bit of my dignity, but I didn't loose much.. Those involved in making that certain days a turmoil.. well, I guess that person lost more than I did... the lost of total respect from me and a few other people..
Mommy's eye operation, and being there for the 1st time, after years of not being there for mommy's previous surgeries, have helped me to realise the responsibilty that I will need to carry, in order to take care of my parents, and cherish them with love, the way they have been showering me with theirs, the past 25 years.. and 9 months.. (kene include skali time I dlm perot.. hahaha).
Each new thing that has happen to me this past few months, up till today, has made me into a person that thinks more clearly n sophisticatedly n maturedly.. though I still get my weng-ness on n off.. hahaha..
On the verge of me turning 25.. a quarter of a century old.. many suprising things happen... All, I must say, has changed me in some way.. and has actually even changed me into a better person.
I've began my career, started to earn my own money, pay my own bills, learning how to go pening kpale bile nk pikir nk bayar all the bills.. hahaha...
I've got my own car.. learnt how to be responsible with it.. Fill up the gas, don't get it schratched, pay the roadtax, top up the Touch n Go card, buy stuff for the car.. though I did get a 'new car' gift from Syaz.. a sign that says 'Very Important Princess On Board'.. hahaha.. Thanks Syaz..
Owh.. I've started to get verryyy busy with work, n starting to feel the stress.. one thing good is that, I don't bring the stress home.. Everything is left at work... Harini was soooo busy, I haven't even had time to go to the toilet!! Not until lunch time and the time mase nk balik tuu.. Hahahaha..
I err.. also got some news which unexpectedly kinda like.. how do u say... got me into a state of restlessness and wondering and excitement and terkejut-ness and happiness and worriness and err... hahaha... don't know how to put it into words laa.. Don't want to think about it too much.
Nothing is certain yet until it is certain.. until everything is actually assured n confirmed.. It is a matter of heart, soul and mind, which, in my opinion has to be carefully considered and thought off. Yeah.. I guess that's how u put it now..
I in fact have also made some of the bestest friends anyone could have.. U know who you guys are.. And I thank God for giving me the oppurtunity to get to know you guys better, and I appreciate every moment of it.. You guys may be new friends.. but you've carved your name.. or should I say tatooed your names, into my heart n mind. I love you guys... I love you even more...
Nevertheless, I have also went thru some turmoil.. but for me.. it was minor.. coz, yes, I did loose a bit of my dignity, but I didn't loose much.. Those involved in making that certain days a turmoil.. well, I guess that person lost more than I did... the lost of total respect from me and a few other people..
Mommy's eye operation, and being there for the 1st time, after years of not being there for mommy's previous surgeries, have helped me to realise the responsibilty that I will need to carry, in order to take care of my parents, and cherish them with love, the way they have been showering me with theirs, the past 25 years.. and 9 months.. (kene include skali time I dlm perot.. hahaha).
Each new thing that has happen to me this past few months, up till today, has made me into a person that thinks more clearly n sophisticatedly n maturedly.. though I still get my weng-ness on n off.. hahaha..
Are we RUDE??
Posted 26th June 2006:
For this blog... i'd prefer to post in in Manglish.. ye la kan.. kot kot la org lain bace, at least derang tak paham sgt.. hahaha..
Anyway, baru-baru ni kat dlm surat khabar, heboh mengatakan (skemanye...) yg dlm Reader's Digest, K.L was voted the 3rd rudest city in the world. Betulke review ni? Well.. meh kite tengok dari pandangan kite sendiri sebagai rakyat Malaysia.. betul atau tidak sangkaan orang.
Mula2... kite kutuk orang lain dulu.. haahahaha... org yg buat survey ni pun bengong.. buat based on a few tests.. ape die? Terjatuh file lah, tunggu org bukak pintu la, senyum lah, service with a smile la... and watever else... Kalau based on that je.. hampeh.. memang banyak la kan country kat dunia ni yg rude. Lepas tu, the fact that, org yg buat survey tu plak, kalo tak silap, dtg from the epal besar... (saper dpt tangkap.. terer!) bandar yg terkenal di seluruh dunia, yg dipenuhi penjenayah, dan sewaktu dengannye... Derang kat situ pun, lagi banyak yg kurang ajar dan biadap.. tapi tak pun kene rated as top 3... knape? sebab org negara derang sendiri, in a state of denial.. derang sendiri tanak mengaku kelemahan negara sendiri, pastu suke hati tok nenek derang jer, nak rate negara org... and mengata negara orang.
But, in some ways, memang tak dinafikan... walaupun kita rakyat Malaysia sepatutnye dilabelkan masyarakat berbudi bahasa dan bersopan santun, tapi there is still a lot of us Malaysians, yg masih agak kasar dlm sikap mereka. Masih banyak lagi antara kita yg tak ladylike than gentleman.. contoh terbaik... kalo nak ikot bab bukak pintu kat org.. haha.. jgn harap.. kalo derang bukak pintu, bukak kat diri sendiri.. pastu, yg tension tu, kalo pintu tu jenis swing, org blakang tu, ketepek.. kene langgar ngan pintu. And then kalo bab barang jatuh... ahahhaha.. kalo barang org lain jatuh.. either kite buat muke seposen.. atau kalo yg dajjal.. gi curik brg org tu.. bukannye nak pulangkan.
Then there's the sexism issue... there's still a lot of people who are chauvinist pigs.. or ape2 la yg derang panggil kan... some lelaki, masih anggap mereka lebih hebat dari perempuan.. of course la they are.. in a lot of ways, but come on... ade la amik berat sket or bertolak ansur sket ngan kite pompuan nih... just because kitorg from the weaker sex, doesn't mean you guys can just diss us girls, or mengarah2 kitorg suke hati derang jer... and then, nak salahkan lelaki jer pun takleh, kite pompuan pun, ade mase, still terhegeh2... konon nak sopan.. tapi sampai biar je org lain buat ape kat kite. At least have some pride in yourselves la... jgn sampai org lain leh pijak kpale kite just like that.. we're in a balance world now... Kalo as an isteri or anak or adik or kakak.. ok, i admit.. we have to show contoh terbaik and turut kate org lelaki.. that is part of our family.
Sebab nilah.. lelaki rude ngan prompuan sebab derang ingat derang leh control kite... and some prompuan lak... terover2 woman power sgt.. sampai lelaki marah jer.. die terajang tros laki tu, or laki tu buat small minor move ngan pompuan tuh tros nak saman laki tu for sexual harrasment...haha.. over la tu kan.. we have to have balance in our life, in this world.. give and take.. that's how it goes..
Oh, then another issue that we Malaysians have, is patience.. we lack that. Masih banyak yg sooo tak sabar.. especially on the road.. tau nak laju, cut org and pecut... ntah aper nak dikejar pun tak tau.. org lambat sket pun dah maki hamun bagai nak rak.. kot2 org tu terleka ke ape.. no one's perfect la kan.. lain la kalo contohnye kat traffic light, lampu dah hijau, org depan kite tak gerak2 lagi, sampai red light kuar balik pun org tu tak jalan.. then bleh la hon.. tapi takat hon je dah la.. ni tak.. nak gak tunjuk who's the man/woman... kuar kreta, maki hamun org depan.. then buat kecoh.. tak sedar diri.. dah stop org tu kat tgh jalan.. padahal konon nak cepat.. lagi buat traffic jam kat tgh2 jalan. Sometimes we just don't think before we do something.. main melulu jer buat.
Lantak la org kata ape pun..We are big bullies at times. But we don't realise it, until kite sendiri terkena.
Smiling... beratkah mulut kite untuk mengukir senyuman?... not really.. kengkadang kite rajin nak senyum kat org.. tapi org lain lak kate kite ni giler.. senyum sorang2.. either that.. or kalo kite senyum kat the opposite sex, kenala kite ngan gelaran.. gatal, miang, tak sedar diri, etc.. So kite nak senyum kat org pun serba salah.. sebab org lain nyer view and thought about us smiling.. so that i don't blame anyone la.. but the truth is.. smiling satu sedekah.. in fact, smiling is a good way for facial exercise.. so if you see someone smile at you.. maybe they just feel like it.. so smile back. Or if you just feel like smiling, then do so.. it's a beautiful thing, smiling.
Actually, what i've stated here, walaupun i letak Malaysians as the main topic, but ni also di tujukan gak for everyone in this world... So, bak kate org, cermin diri dulu, before mengata org.. Kalo diri sendiri dah perangai tak elok, jgn nak deny... coz nanti we won't be able to see our own fault, and only see other people's fault.. and because of that la kat dunia ni penoh ngan org perasaan hasad dengki, sebab masing2 tk puas hati ngan org lain, padahal diri sendiri pun same, or better yet, lagi terok dr org yg kite kutuk tu..
Anyway, suke hati la org nak kate ape pun.. but this is my comment la.. what i think.. banyak lagi sebenarnye.. but if nak luahkan semue.. mau satu hari nak blog.. i dahla ngantuk giler ni.. maybe lain kali.. when issues like this come up again.. so, if anyone of you have any other comments, or tak puas hati ngan aper yg i comment, feel free to say anything. it's a free world.. i won't mind.. kalo i sakit hati pun.. i diam2 kan jer.. paling2 kalo tension sgt ngan komen korang, i leh terjun jambatan... bukan bunuh diri.. tapi buat bungy.. hahaha.. release tension aper!
Well, till then... See ya when i See ya!!
For this blog... i'd prefer to post in in Manglish.. ye la kan.. kot kot la org lain bace, at least derang tak paham sgt.. hahaha..
Anyway, baru-baru ni kat dlm surat khabar, heboh mengatakan (skemanye...) yg dlm Reader's Digest, K.L was voted the 3rd rudest city in the world. Betulke review ni? Well.. meh kite tengok dari pandangan kite sendiri sebagai rakyat Malaysia.. betul atau tidak sangkaan orang.
Mula2... kite kutuk orang lain dulu.. haahahaha... org yg buat survey ni pun bengong.. buat based on a few tests.. ape die? Terjatuh file lah, tunggu org bukak pintu la, senyum lah, service with a smile la... and watever else... Kalau based on that je.. hampeh.. memang banyak la kan country kat dunia ni yg rude. Lepas tu, the fact that, org yg buat survey tu plak, kalo tak silap, dtg from the epal besar... (saper dpt tangkap.. terer!) bandar yg terkenal di seluruh dunia, yg dipenuhi penjenayah, dan sewaktu dengannye... Derang kat situ pun, lagi banyak yg kurang ajar dan biadap.. tapi tak pun kene rated as top 3... knape? sebab org negara derang sendiri, in a state of denial.. derang sendiri tanak mengaku kelemahan negara sendiri, pastu suke hati tok nenek derang jer, nak rate negara org... and mengata negara orang.
But, in some ways, memang tak dinafikan... walaupun kita rakyat Malaysia sepatutnye dilabelkan masyarakat berbudi bahasa dan bersopan santun, tapi there is still a lot of us Malaysians, yg masih agak kasar dlm sikap mereka. Masih banyak lagi antara kita yg tak ladylike than gentleman.. contoh terbaik... kalo nak ikot bab bukak pintu kat org.. haha.. jgn harap.. kalo derang bukak pintu, bukak kat diri sendiri.. pastu, yg tension tu, kalo pintu tu jenis swing, org blakang tu, ketepek.. kene langgar ngan pintu. And then kalo bab barang jatuh... ahahhaha.. kalo barang org lain jatuh.. either kite buat muke seposen.. atau kalo yg dajjal.. gi curik brg org tu.. bukannye nak pulangkan.
Then there's the sexism issue... there's still a lot of people who are chauvinist pigs.. or ape2 la yg derang panggil kan... some lelaki, masih anggap mereka lebih hebat dari perempuan.. of course la they are.. in a lot of ways, but come on... ade la amik berat sket or bertolak ansur sket ngan kite pompuan nih... just because kitorg from the weaker sex, doesn't mean you guys can just diss us girls, or mengarah2 kitorg suke hati derang jer... and then, nak salahkan lelaki jer pun takleh, kite pompuan pun, ade mase, still terhegeh2... konon nak sopan.. tapi sampai biar je org lain buat ape kat kite. At least have some pride in yourselves la... jgn sampai org lain leh pijak kpale kite just like that.. we're in a balance world now... Kalo as an isteri or anak or adik or kakak.. ok, i admit.. we have to show contoh terbaik and turut kate org lelaki.. that is part of our family.
Sebab nilah.. lelaki rude ngan prompuan sebab derang ingat derang leh control kite... and some prompuan lak... terover2 woman power sgt.. sampai lelaki marah jer.. die terajang tros laki tu, or laki tu buat small minor move ngan pompuan tuh tros nak saman laki tu for sexual harrasment...haha.. over la tu kan.. we have to have balance in our life, in this world.. give and take.. that's how it goes..
Oh, then another issue that we Malaysians have, is patience.. we lack that. Masih banyak yg sooo tak sabar.. especially on the road.. tau nak laju, cut org and pecut... ntah aper nak dikejar pun tak tau.. org lambat sket pun dah maki hamun bagai nak rak.. kot2 org tu terleka ke ape.. no one's perfect la kan.. lain la kalo contohnye kat traffic light, lampu dah hijau, org depan kite tak gerak2 lagi, sampai red light kuar balik pun org tu tak jalan.. then bleh la hon.. tapi takat hon je dah la.. ni tak.. nak gak tunjuk who's the man/woman... kuar kreta, maki hamun org depan.. then buat kecoh.. tak sedar diri.. dah stop org tu kat tgh jalan.. padahal konon nak cepat.. lagi buat traffic jam kat tgh2 jalan. Sometimes we just don't think before we do something.. main melulu jer buat.
Lantak la org kata ape pun..We are big bullies at times. But we don't realise it, until kite sendiri terkena.
Smiling... beratkah mulut kite untuk mengukir senyuman?... not really.. kengkadang kite rajin nak senyum kat org.. tapi org lain lak kate kite ni giler.. senyum sorang2.. either that.. or kalo kite senyum kat the opposite sex, kenala kite ngan gelaran.. gatal, miang, tak sedar diri, etc.. So kite nak senyum kat org pun serba salah.. sebab org lain nyer view and thought about us smiling.. so that i don't blame anyone la.. but the truth is.. smiling satu sedekah.. in fact, smiling is a good way for facial exercise.. so if you see someone smile at you.. maybe they just feel like it.. so smile back. Or if you just feel like smiling, then do so.. it's a beautiful thing, smiling.
Actually, what i've stated here, walaupun i letak Malaysians as the main topic, but ni also di tujukan gak for everyone in this world... So, bak kate org, cermin diri dulu, before mengata org.. Kalo diri sendiri dah perangai tak elok, jgn nak deny... coz nanti we won't be able to see our own fault, and only see other people's fault.. and because of that la kat dunia ni penoh ngan org perasaan hasad dengki, sebab masing2 tk puas hati ngan org lain, padahal diri sendiri pun same, or better yet, lagi terok dr org yg kite kutuk tu..
Anyway, suke hati la org nak kate ape pun.. but this is my comment la.. what i think.. banyak lagi sebenarnye.. but if nak luahkan semue.. mau satu hari nak blog.. i dahla ngantuk giler ni.. maybe lain kali.. when issues like this come up again.. so, if anyone of you have any other comments, or tak puas hati ngan aper yg i comment, feel free to say anything. it's a free world.. i won't mind.. kalo i sakit hati pun.. i diam2 kan jer.. paling2 kalo tension sgt ngan komen korang, i leh terjun jambatan... bukan bunuh diri.. tapi buat bungy.. hahaha.. release tension aper!
Well, till then... See ya when i See ya!!
On LOVE...
Posted 27th April 2007, but hey... this can even be used err.. now?? Wahahahaha... :
The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster,
and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh, then cry.
The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love...
The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and it's always there somewhere in your life.
The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true.
The strange thing about love is that even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.
Love is strange isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right.
********************************************************
I am in love.. but with someone.. I do not think would love me back.. and it hurts, deeply, madly, truly.. If only I could make that person love me back.. Alas.. I can't. All I can do is wait and hope for the best. And look for some alternatives.. though I'm afraid to do so.. because what if this person does love me back? And at that time, I've already found another person? I'd loose the chance of ever being with this person. This is so hard... sometimes I wonder, why this person came into my life in the 1st place. Why did he have to come into my life and be soooo... right. Yet sooo, (sigh...) unreachable.. Maybe he came into my life, as just a friend. To keep me company, and to make me smile... but not to love me and fall for me, the way I have love and fall for him.
This is sad... oh sooo sad. I feel miserable at times.. because he is always there.. but not. Do you know what I mean? It's like... he's everywhere, everywhere I look or think or see.. I see him.. in my mind, in my laptop, in my phone, in my clothes, on the streets (well part of him).. everywhere.. yet I can't reach his heart. If only by saying "Choose me, love me" would be easy, and that he would choose me in the end. Nothing is certain... and I hate this feeling. hate it.. HATE IT!
The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster,
and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh, then cry.
The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love...
The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and it's always there somewhere in your life.
The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true.
The strange thing about love is that even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.
Love is strange isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right.
********************************************************
I am in love.. but with someone.. I do not think would love me back.. and it hurts, deeply, madly, truly.. If only I could make that person love me back.. Alas.. I can't. All I can do is wait and hope for the best. And look for some alternatives.. though I'm afraid to do so.. because what if this person does love me back? And at that time, I've already found another person? I'd loose the chance of ever being with this person. This is so hard... sometimes I wonder, why this person came into my life in the 1st place. Why did he have to come into my life and be soooo... right. Yet sooo, (sigh...) unreachable.. Maybe he came into my life, as just a friend. To keep me company, and to make me smile... but not to love me and fall for me, the way I have love and fall for him.
This is sad... oh sooo sad. I feel miserable at times.. because he is always there.. but not. Do you know what I mean? It's like... he's everywhere, everywhere I look or think or see.. I see him.. in my mind, in my laptop, in my phone, in my clothes, on the streets (well part of him).. everywhere.. yet I can't reach his heart. If only by saying "Choose me, love me" would be easy, and that he would choose me in the end. Nothing is certain... and I hate this feeling. hate it.. HATE IT!
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