Tuesday, 25th of November

I'm at the hospital now, IJN to be specific, accompanying my mom to do her check-up. We were briefed by d radiologist that the whole procedure of the TECHNESIUM SCAN takes 5-6 hours.. Lame tul.. I dah nk tertido2 dah ni.. My mom's turn belum lagi.. But when she it is hers, i won't be able to come near my mom for the nxt few hours or so, sbb the docs will inject her with some kind of fluid that will cause the body to produce radiation.. And because i won't be injected with the same substance- me just accompanying her, it would be a risk for me to come near, as i might get exposed..

Oih... Dah ngantuk.. Huhu.. I just downloaded Opera Mini into the hp.. So dok surfing merata.. Sat lg, mesti bill melambung naik.. Haha.. I'll continue later with other updates, whenever I can.

P/S: I'm blogging thru my si penyet E71.. Hihihi..

I don't effin' care anymore...

I don't care anymore...

I may sound harsh, I may sound cold.. but I don't care anymore...

I don't care anymore because all you think about is yourself, so why should I care when all you do is hurt me and other people because of your ignorance and self fulfilness.

We promised that nothing will change.. we promised that everything would be like it used to. Here I am trying my f**kin best to work things out for us and everyone else, but you are the one changing things..

All I ask was a simple question but it was as if I ask if I could destroy you...

I don't care from now on what you do... what happens.. because you are just to full of yourself and don't care about other people. Get a grip... you don't want to be hurt, but instead you're hurting the world around you.

It hurts to see that things have to be like this now.. it hurts to see that things have changed.. it hurts to see one by one, people hurting without you realising because all you care about is yourself. But it comes to a point where this hurt has to stop, and with that, I don't care anymore...

I don't care anymore...

Clown Convention

-Recently, in Mexico City, an International Clown Convention was held, where hundreds of clowns, or people dressing up as clowns, came to gather in this historic event that showed juggling games, balloon and makeup classes and other clowny-stuff...- an article in the newspaper about a month ago, with a big picture of clowns from all ages and colours and faces sitting together....

OMG!!! I dahla takut clown... I blame the movie "IT" for this... bayangkan kalo have to be stuck between those hundreds of clowns... HORROR!!!

Bilik Ayor...

In the newspaper today... from Star to be exact, there was an article on Public Toilets... and how bad the condition was in the city...

I must say.. I really, really agree... sangat terok keadaan toilet2 kat some places.. nan bau hancing, ngan feces bersepah... aiyooo.. geli ok!!!...

Pastu ade plak this one restaurant owner from who-knows-which-restaurant-i-wish-i-never-step-into-ever, bleh kate.. why pay more money to find cleaners for the toilet? The profit I get itself is not enough to cover the cost.. now want to clean the toilet.. no need laaa....

Ape ke gile restaurant owner tu?? Eeewww.... mesti geli tpt die...

Then they talked about how toilets were charged, for it's cleaning services... alaa... yg slalu, kene masuk, bayar 20 sen tu... some ppl complain, dahla bayar... tp still kotor.. betul pe.. mmg pun... mcm some places I know... it's like sooooo eeeeewwww....

Then KLCC came up, where the premier toilet charged RM2 to enter n use the facility.. It's worth it to pay that price.. coz the toilet mmg la tersangat bersih...

I remember a friend who said I was mengada2 to pay that amount of money to go to the toilet.. then I answered... I'd rather pay that kinda money than hold my nature's call... coz I am very particular about toilet cleanliness.. sanggup tahan... unless really2 terpaksa..

But what I don't understand is, how even free toilets pun bleh jaga kebersihan.. as in really2 clean... tp the rest can't... tak geli kah mereka? tak ingat ke all the germs n bacteria yg bleh merebak??? Eventually not...

Ok, one more thing to touch... it's about the toilet users... walawey... kot ye pun nak berak ke kencing ke, aim la betul2 kat dlm toilet bowl tuuu... ni tak... sampai ketepi... some sampai kedinding pun ade... uwekkk... geli giler!!! Kot ye pun dah salah aim, ape salahnye pancut air n clean your shit up... tolongla manusia... tidak civilise kah anda???

Huhu... jagalah kebersihan tandas bersama2.. baik cleaner, baik owner, baik pengguna... semue org pun mahu berak dan kencing...

P/S: Maaf saya harus guna perkataan2 yg menjijikan... tp betul perrr!!!

Lain...

Saya rase lain..
Saye rase tak best...
Saye rase bukan mcm dulu..
Tapi saya buat tak reti...
Sebab kita semua kena teruskan hidup kita..
Dan yg paling penting bahagiakan diri kita, dan keluarga kita dahulu...
Jadi biarkan je yang lain2 tu...
Saye buat tak kesah...
Walaupun saye kesah sket2...
Tapi bukan hak saye utk kesah pun...

The Heart of the Matter

This song suits me now... the lyrics has deep meanings that somehow, similarly potrays what I'm going through with so many past things that still have an affect on me... this song is by India Arie.

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear

But I knew that it would come

An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone

She said you found someone

And I thought of all the bad luck,

And all the struggles we went through

How I lost me and you lost you

What are these voices outside love's open door

Make us throw off our contentment

And beg for something more?

I've been learning to live without you now

But I miss you sometimes

The more I know, the less I understand

All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning them again

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter

But my will gets weak

And my thoughts seem to scatter

But I think it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain

There's a yearning undefined

And people filled with rage

We all need a little tenderness

How can love survive in such a graceless age

And the trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness

They're the very things we kill,

I guessPride and competition cannot fill these empty arms

And the wall they put between us,

You know it doesn't keep us warm

I've been trying to live without you now

But I miss you, baby

The more I know, the less I understand

And all the things I thought I figured out,

I have to learn again

I've been tryin' to get down to the

Heart of the Matter

But my will gets weak

And my heart is so shattered

But I think it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

All the people in your life who've come and gone

They let you down, you know they hurt your pride

Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on

You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside

I wanna be happily everafter

And my heart is so shattered

But I know it's about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if, even if you don't love me

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter

Because the flesh gets weak

And the ashes will scatter

So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness

Forgiveness

Even if you don't love me anymore

Even if you don't love me anymore

Barack Obama & John Key...

Congratulations America for having Barack Obama as the 44th President of the United States. Hopefully chane will come to America.. America needs it, the world needs it.

Some people wonder why we care about another countries political issue... well, in this issue, pertaining to America, I guess we have to care.. especially those that work in the international segment of the industry. Because wat America decides, affects the world in a lot of ways... especially in the economic sector.. We saw the world economy dropping recently because of the affect America has on other countries... What happens in the world war, especially in the mid west is, on a matter of fact, also affected by America's decision. So saying that we don't need to care, might be an understatement.

New Zealand got a new Prime Minister as well... John Key from the National party... goodbye Helen Clark... hopefully a new change to New Zealand as well... again, New Zealands economy pun serba sket affect come countries. especially Asian countries la... for a fact, they have a lare import export business with Malaysia... so kalo derang jatuh, they could bring us down too...


Ni apehal la plak Dee2 ckp pasal politic n economy ni? Hahahha... ni la jadinye bile xde keje, cari keje... better stop now. Tataaaa....

Sokong Ellie!!!

Nak sokong Ellie gak!!!

Hahahaha...

Seriously... knp banyak sgt org around me yg suke sgt camni ek? Pelik tul... Am I insane or what???

Songs to heal..

I like this song... and Rebecca sgt lawa.. She's of a Norwegian-Indonesian background.. susah nk dpt album die.. I only say one album kat Speedy aritu.. but I blum beli.. hopefully ade la nanti when I'm ready to buy it.


Rebecca - Tanpamu

Torn..

Torn into pieces, not being able to let it out... and it hurts like hell!!!

I'm sorry... Goodbye

With this, I officially declare that I close my doors to any love or scandal relationships for the year 2008, the door will be closed until further notice.

I am tired of being into something that doesn't have any common sense anymore. I therefore bid farewell to the past, to take a rest and to re-energize myself to be with myself, my family and my friends whom I love dearly.

This video clip, and song is dedicated to those that have been in my past.. I'm sorry, goodbye...






Sebelum bertemu denganmu
Diriku bahagia
Semenjak bertemu denganmu
Ku makin bahagia..Semakin lama aku
Semakin tau tentang engkau
Sedikit kecewa
Ternyata engkau tak baik

Pertama tama semua manis
Yang engkau berikan
Membuat aku merasakan
Cinta sebenarnya…Semakin hari
Semakin terungkap
Yang sesungguhnya
Kumakin kecewa
Ternyata kau penuh dusta

Maafkan ku harus pergi
Ku tak suka dengan ini
Aku tak bodoh
Seperti kekasihmu yang lain…

Terima kasih oh Tuhan
Tunjukkan siapa dia
Maaf kita putus
So thank you so much
I’m sorry good bye

Seribu cara kau membuat
Ku dengan puitis
Tapi kau lupa bahwa
Ku juga manusia
Yang punya mata
Perihnya hati dan perasaan……

Maaf aku pergi
Dan takkan untukmu lagi
(i’m sorry good bye)
Ku tak suka dengan ini
Aku tak bodoh
Maafkan ku harus pergi
Tak seperti kekasihmu yang lain

Terimakasih oh Tuhan
Tunjukkan siapa dia
Maaf kita putus
So thank you so much
I’m sorry good bye