Nde Devi kirim kan 6 boxes of my fav Teh Botol (in a box) from Medan... I'm in heaven!!!.. Mekasih Nde Devi...
Nyum Nyum Nyum...
Monday, June 30, 2008
Phrases and quotes of the week...
This past few days.. I keep on getting amusing phrases and quotes from my family members.. peribahasa yg x pernah di dengar and so on.. dok gelakkk je keja... here are a few..
"Ayam dilepas, tangan bau taik ayam" - Nenek
Meaning: That someone terlepas, tapi name kita dah buruk..
"Dah takde jodoh... musang tak sampai2" - Daddy
Meaning: Errr.. daddy got it all wrong actually.. the musang is actually suppose to be a kumbang.. hahahahaha! Daddy, daddy... suke buat peribahasa sendiri..
"What I've always wanted to do before I die, is sing in front of an audience. Maybe I'll translate a whole song in French, sing it in front of everyone, frightened them all, then die." - Tok Tun
" Where is this?? Is this near my place? I don't even know where we are... ahh, yes, this is near my place.. I can smell my home from here" - Tok Tun, when we sent her
home after the wedding.
Tok Tun (again) said this when she saw the sexy wedding singer wearing a striped pink and black tubed flare dress: "Wow, I'm gonna get something like this for my graduation, and scare the hell out of my lecturers" (and Tok Tun is 81 yrs old!!!)
When asked, whether Mommy was a Queen Control, by my uncle and auntie, my dad replied "Nyawa!!!"
"Ayam dilepas, tangan bau taik ayam" - Nenek
Meaning: That someone terlepas, tapi name kita dah buruk..
"Dah takde jodoh... musang tak sampai2" - Daddy
Meaning: Errr.. daddy got it all wrong actually.. the musang is actually suppose to be a kumbang.. hahahahaha! Daddy, daddy... suke buat peribahasa sendiri..
"What I've always wanted to do before I die, is sing in front of an audience. Maybe I'll translate a whole song in French, sing it in front of everyone, frightened them all, then die." - Tok Tun
" Where is this?? Is this near my place? I don't even know where we are... ahh, yes, this is near my place.. I can smell my home from here" - Tok Tun, when we sent her
home after the wedding.
Tok Tun (again) said this when she saw the sexy wedding singer wearing a striped pink and black tubed flare dress: "Wow, I'm gonna get something like this for my graduation, and scare the hell out of my lecturers" (and Tok Tun is 81 yrs old!!!)
When asked, whether Mommy was a Queen Control, by my uncle and auntie, my dad replied "Nyawa!!!"
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Jom tido...
Just got back from rehearsals.. this week, 3 hari turut2 balik after 8pm... byk keje lagi.. then, harini rehearsal... besok the real stuff for A. Aida's wedding...
Gigi masih x comfy.. nxt thursday dah nk pasang braces... mesti makan pun xleh.. tension plak rasenye... huhuhu...
OMG!!! Penatnyaaaa!!! All I wanna do is sleeepp, sleeeeppp and sleeeeepppp!!!
ZZZZzzzzZZzZZzzzzZZZZZzZZzzzzzZzzz..................
Gigi masih x comfy.. nxt thursday dah nk pasang braces... mesti makan pun xleh.. tension plak rasenye... huhuhu...
OMG!!! Penatnyaaaa!!! All I wanna do is sleeepp, sleeeeppp and sleeeeepppp!!!
ZZZZzzzzZZzZZzzzzZZZZZzZZzzzzzZzzz..................
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Ngaaaa!!!!
Banyak tul keje!!! Tak larat kengkadang.. but hey.. I put myself into this.. but I'm learning new things each day.. so I that's the upside of it all.. in a few mths time.. kalo stress lagi.. I'm not gonna quit, rather, nak mintak education leave.. ngehehehe...
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
A Tribute to my late Tok Azam & Tok Naung
Wasn’t in a good mood yesterday.. still have a bit of that feeling today. Then in the morning, everything was ok, until almost all of us got slammed by our boss.. must be a PMS or sumthin’2.. but she slammed us for a good reason though, coz we were unknowledeable on a few topics… haha.. padan muke.. but takkan nk understand semue bende in a few days kan .. Rome wasn’t build in a day. But I guess she eventually cooled off, because of muke blur kitorg.. tros die explain pelan2.. hehehe.
Anyway, a VIP came this afternoon, after lunch. Velda called me to come down from lunch asap, coz Adeline wanted to introduce him to all of us. So, when I came down, the PB Room was filled with people, plus 2 noticeable old guys.. who reminded me of my late Tok Azam. I sat down at my place, and while doing some work, got to hear the concversation the guests was having with Adeline. I overheard him talking about how in the old days he would go see horse races and stuff here n there, which caught my attention, coz Tok Azam used to like to do those stuff too.. plus that VIP seriously reminded me of him.
So as he was about to leave, I gave him my business card, and he asked which part of the royal family I was from, and I told him, Perak.. and he asked me a few other questions bout that side of the family. It was then which I asked, “Out of curiosity sir, do you happen to know my late grandfather, Dato Seri Raja Azam??” and he automatically replied with a hand gesture of a person taking a photo, and said.. yes, I know your grandfather.. he loves to take pictures and has a camera with him all the time. And he repeated the snapshot gesture… I smiled as widely as I could.
Then a huge smile went thru my face the whole time thinking about that.. even as I am typing this. I mean.. after all these years, ppl still remember Tok Azam.. and when mentioned him, they’ll remember Tok Naung as well.. as the ‘angel on earth with lotsa curls’ lady. Or 'the Beautiful one..'
It's still a suprise.. Tok Azam has past away for about 9 years now, and Tok Naung, left us 18 years ago, and people still remember them. There is still that sense of happiness from people when they mention both my late grandparents name. It's a suprise to see, how many lives they both touched during their years of living.
I remember Tok Azam to be a very stern and 'garang' grandpa.. but as the years went by, he became mellow and more loving. He took the initiative to get closer to his children and gradchildren, a thing he seldom did during his career life. I remember there was this one time, he tried to get one of the race horse he owned, for me.. but sadly, the horse was sold.. too late for negotiation. I remembered how even though how funny a joke was, all that came out from his mouth was "HEH!".. He didn't have a funny bone.. everyone was laughing like mad, but all tha came out from him was "HEH!"... Then there was a time when one of my cousin, Nazrin, died, just a few months prior to Tok Azam's death. Tok Azam was crying, wouldn't eat.. it was then where it showed how much he actually loved his grandchildren.
I was there, holding his feet, during the his few last breaths.. I could remember the sudden chill that went thru his legs, when he breathe his last breath, I could remember the face of my mom n my auntie at that exact moment... I could remember me running down, screaming to my cousin... saying "Tok Azam dah xdee..." and there was a wedding at the neigbours house.. it was a sad moment, though I had to say it was amusing to see, the guests from the wedding beside the house, suddenly changed faces, when they saw me screaming n running towards my cousin.. all of them stopped and sat still.. but the neigbours n the caterers were kind enough to make a last minute preparation of the kenduri for us that night.
I was never close to Tok Azam.... only a few years up to his death, when he started softening up, that me n my cousins were brave enough to get close to him. There were times, that even if we terlanggar kerusi.. we would almost cry, because we were afraid that he would scold us.. yeah.. he was that strict... but generous nevertheless..
I have a blurred memory of my times with Tok Naung... she died when I was 7, and I just came back from US then... so more the less, I only spend like 3 years of my life with her. But I remembered that she was of course, undeniably an angel on earth. She has never once scolded, yet alone raise her voice to any of her children as well as her grandchildren... There's a few times, from what I can remember, where If I was scolded by mommy, Tok Naung would actually defend me... I could though, remember the time when she started to get her first stroke, and a few months before that, when she came to sleep at our house during Puasa of 1990... she was admitted a week after that, because of the stroke and other diabetic complications.. and our Raya that year, was mostly spent in the hospital, until her dying day. I remembered that day clearly... me n momm was at home in Subang Jaya at that time.. having just resting after dinner. When mommy got a phone call from my uncle, who said that Tok Naung's condition was critical, and she should come to the hospital right away. Daddy was off shore, so Daddy's youngest sister, Auntie Zariah, and her husband came to pick us up. As soon as we arrived the hospital, it was too late. Tok Naung was gone.. Mommy was crying so much that time.. We just came back from the US for about 4 months, so mommy didn't really get the chance to 'hilangkan rasa manja' with Tok Naung.. that was what hurt her most I guess.. Almost everyone we knew cried when Tok Naung left us... she was someone everyone loved.. there was almost no one who hated her or envied her..
Mommy often told me, that a few months after her death, everytime I got a scolding from mommy, I would often cry and call Tok Naung's name, till I fell to sleep... That's when mommy felt guilty, and hurriedly 'pujuk' me..
Both Tok Azam and Tok Naung were great people... They've helped a lot of people, loved a lot of people, and made a lot of people into a successful, kind people they are today. Both of you will be remembered in our hearts. I miss you both dearly.. and I love u both...
Al-Fatihah to my late grandfather, Allahyarham Raja Azam (Tok Azam) and my late grandmother, Allahyarhamah Raja Fatimah (Tok Naung)... May they rest in peace, and be put into those whom Allah loves and forgives. InsyaAllah...
Anyway, a VIP came this afternoon, after lunch. Velda called me to come down from lunch asap, coz Adeline wanted to introduce him to all of us. So, when I came down, the PB Room was filled with people, plus 2 noticeable old guys.. who reminded me of my late Tok Azam. I sat down at my place, and while doing some work, got to hear the concversation the guests was having with Adeline. I overheard him talking about how in the old days he would go see horse races and stuff here n there, which caught my attention, coz Tok Azam used to like to do those stuff too.. plus that VIP seriously reminded me of him.
So as he was about to leave, I gave him my business card, and he asked which part of the royal family I was from, and I told him, Perak.. and he asked me a few other questions bout that side of the family. It was then which I asked, “Out of curiosity sir, do you happen to know my late grandfather, Dato Seri Raja Azam??” and he automatically replied with a hand gesture of a person taking a photo, and said.. yes, I know your grandfather.. he loves to take pictures and has a camera with him all the time. And he repeated the snapshot gesture… I smiled as widely as I could.
Then a huge smile went thru my face the whole time thinking about that.. even as I am typing this. I mean.. after all these years, ppl still remember Tok Azam.. and when mentioned him, they’ll remember Tok Naung as well.. as the ‘angel on earth with lotsa curls’ lady. Or 'the Beautiful one..'
It's still a suprise.. Tok Azam has past away for about 9 years now, and Tok Naung, left us 18 years ago, and people still remember them. There is still that sense of happiness from people when they mention both my late grandparents name. It's a suprise to see, how many lives they both touched during their years of living.
I remember Tok Azam to be a very stern and 'garang' grandpa.. but as the years went by, he became mellow and more loving. He took the initiative to get closer to his children and gradchildren, a thing he seldom did during his career life. I remember there was this one time, he tried to get one of the race horse he owned, for me.. but sadly, the horse was sold.. too late for negotiation. I remembered how even though how funny a joke was, all that came out from his mouth was "HEH!".. He didn't have a funny bone.. everyone was laughing like mad, but all tha came out from him was "HEH!"... Then there was a time when one of my cousin, Nazrin, died, just a few months prior to Tok Azam's death. Tok Azam was crying, wouldn't eat.. it was then where it showed how much he actually loved his grandchildren.
I was there, holding his feet, during the his few last breaths.. I could remember the sudden chill that went thru his legs, when he breathe his last breath, I could remember the face of my mom n my auntie at that exact moment... I could remember me running down, screaming to my cousin... saying "Tok Azam dah xdee..." and there was a wedding at the neigbours house.. it was a sad moment, though I had to say it was amusing to see, the guests from the wedding beside the house, suddenly changed faces, when they saw me screaming n running towards my cousin.. all of them stopped and sat still.. but the neigbours n the caterers were kind enough to make a last minute preparation of the kenduri for us that night.
I was never close to Tok Azam.... only a few years up to his death, when he started softening up, that me n my cousins were brave enough to get close to him. There were times, that even if we terlanggar kerusi.. we would almost cry, because we were afraid that he would scold us.. yeah.. he was that strict... but generous nevertheless..
I have a blurred memory of my times with Tok Naung... she died when I was 7, and I just came back from US then... so more the less, I only spend like 3 years of my life with her. But I remembered that she was of course, undeniably an angel on earth. She has never once scolded, yet alone raise her voice to any of her children as well as her grandchildren... There's a few times, from what I can remember, where If I was scolded by mommy, Tok Naung would actually defend me... I could though, remember the time when she started to get her first stroke, and a few months before that, when she came to sleep at our house during Puasa of 1990... she was admitted a week after that, because of the stroke and other diabetic complications.. and our Raya that year, was mostly spent in the hospital, until her dying day. I remembered that day clearly... me n momm was at home in Subang Jaya at that time.. having just resting after dinner. When mommy got a phone call from my uncle, who said that Tok Naung's condition was critical, and she should come to the hospital right away. Daddy was off shore, so Daddy's youngest sister, Auntie Zariah, and her husband came to pick us up. As soon as we arrived the hospital, it was too late. Tok Naung was gone.. Mommy was crying so much that time.. We just came back from the US for about 4 months, so mommy didn't really get the chance to 'hilangkan rasa manja' with Tok Naung.. that was what hurt her most I guess.. Almost everyone we knew cried when Tok Naung left us... she was someone everyone loved.. there was almost no one who hated her or envied her..
Mommy often told me, that a few months after her death, everytime I got a scolding from mommy, I would often cry and call Tok Naung's name, till I fell to sleep... That's when mommy felt guilty, and hurriedly 'pujuk' me..
Both Tok Azam and Tok Naung were great people... They've helped a lot of people, loved a lot of people, and made a lot of people into a successful, kind people they are today. Both of you will be remembered in our hearts. I miss you both dearly.. and I love u both...
Al-Fatihah to my late grandfather, Allahyarham Raja Azam (Tok Azam) and my late grandmother, Allahyarhamah Raja Fatimah (Tok Naung)... May they rest in peace, and be put into those whom Allah loves and forgives. InsyaAllah...
Monday, June 23, 2008
Gila!!!
Dear Blog,
Crazy night.. crazy, crazy, CRAZY night!!! Too much info for me to handle.. I think someone just hit the flush right above my head.. feel like flushing down the drainnn.... aaaaaahhhhhhh..... SPLASH!!! I think I need to drown myself to sleep..
Regards,
Nadeeya
Crazy night.. crazy, crazy, CRAZY night!!! Too much info for me to handle.. I think someone just hit the flush right above my head.. feel like flushing down the drainnn.... aaaaaahhhhhhh..... SPLASH!!! I think I need to drown myself to sleep..
Regards,
Nadeeya
Today, My Eyes...
Today I got an MC, because of an eye nfection.
I woke up this morning, groggy of course.. kate pun monday.. monday blues... dah mandi2, pakai baju semue.. just about to put on my make-up, when my eye rase gatal.. gosok la sket2 kan.., then gi tgk kat cermin.. amikkk.. my eyes were blood shot red... i quickly siap2 and went to the clinic.. called Yee Mei, my supervisor, saying that I would be late..
Waited for the doctor for half an hour.. but was the 1st person in, when she arrived.. hehe.. she asked me a few questions, and checked my eye.. and yeap, I had conjungtivitis.. i duno wether I spelled that correctly.. haha.. Then I asked.. "so, can I go to work??" She replied, "no, I'll be giving u an MC, and where sun glasses if you go out".. ok then.. to home I go back. Called Yee Mei, and we laughed.. pelik betul laa.. mesti ketawa kalo ckp ngan die.. haha.. then Yee Mei said ok, and bleh plak bercerita.. die gi crite that her daugher and husband pun tgh sakit mata, and she herself isn't feeling that well.
Tengah musim orang sakit...
So, dok la kat umah, slept 2 kali, tenghari skali, ptg skali.. watch 2 movies, Norbit and Harry & the Handersons. Nak log on to the net, modem buat hal.. the whole day.. skrg ni pun tgh pakai dial up yg lembab, mengalahkan kura2.. I tell you, If a turtle were to race with the dial up connection, the turtle would reach at least half an hour before the dial up sampai... slow poke..
Anyway, that's the story of my day at home today.. tomorrow, back to work.. gedamm... I know there's like sooo many things to do.. well, not actually a lot, but there's like 2 teleconference, 1 training (the other one was today, but since I'm on MC, so that's outta my list)... there's the online assesment test, which is due on the 27th, and of course the audits and the compiling of files and documents, yada, yada, yada.... and the daily routine of reports and term sheets and sales to be closed of course.
I've actually gotten use to all that.. and I'm proud to say, that I'm getting better at it by the minute. Just haven't had the confidence to do sales yet.. but I'm not expected to.. say that's alright.. no rush to do it, and no push from my supervisor n boss. Ngehehehe...
P/S: My eyes... tula.. gi lg intai Wan mandi.. Wan, gosok lebih2 sket kat blakang tu... owh.. n celah2 situ gak.. kalo x bersih gak.. nanti I dtg bersihkan... owwhhhh.. eeww.. ngahahahaha..
P/S/S: I want to go out and have some fun!!!! Dah more than a week melekat kat umah... bosannye!!! At least for a movie, or a dinner or like, a drink... puh-puhleeaaaassseeee!!!!
I woke up this morning, groggy of course.. kate pun monday.. monday blues... dah mandi2, pakai baju semue.. just about to put on my make-up, when my eye rase gatal.. gosok la sket2 kan.., then gi tgk kat cermin.. amikkk.. my eyes were blood shot red... i quickly siap2 and went to the clinic.. called Yee Mei, my supervisor, saying that I would be late..
Waited for the doctor for half an hour.. but was the 1st person in, when she arrived.. hehe.. she asked me a few questions, and checked my eye.. and yeap, I had conjungtivitis.. i duno wether I spelled that correctly.. haha.. Then I asked.. "so, can I go to work??" She replied, "no, I'll be giving u an MC, and where sun glasses if you go out".. ok then.. to home I go back. Called Yee Mei, and we laughed.. pelik betul laa.. mesti ketawa kalo ckp ngan die.. haha.. then Yee Mei said ok, and bleh plak bercerita.. die gi crite that her daugher and husband pun tgh sakit mata, and she herself isn't feeling that well.
Tengah musim orang sakit...
So, dok la kat umah, slept 2 kali, tenghari skali, ptg skali.. watch 2 movies, Norbit and Harry & the Handersons. Nak log on to the net, modem buat hal.. the whole day.. skrg ni pun tgh pakai dial up yg lembab, mengalahkan kura2.. I tell you, If a turtle were to race with the dial up connection, the turtle would reach at least half an hour before the dial up sampai... slow poke..
Anyway, that's the story of my day at home today.. tomorrow, back to work.. gedamm... I know there's like sooo many things to do.. well, not actually a lot, but there's like 2 teleconference, 1 training (the other one was today, but since I'm on MC, so that's outta my list)... there's the online assesment test, which is due on the 27th, and of course the audits and the compiling of files and documents, yada, yada, yada.... and the daily routine of reports and term sheets and sales to be closed of course.
I've actually gotten use to all that.. and I'm proud to say, that I'm getting better at it by the minute. Just haven't had the confidence to do sales yet.. but I'm not expected to.. say that's alright.. no rush to do it, and no push from my supervisor n boss. Ngehehehe...
P/S: My eyes... tula.. gi lg intai Wan mandi.. Wan, gosok lebih2 sket kat blakang tu... owh.. n celah2 situ gak.. kalo x bersih gak.. nanti I dtg bersihkan... owwhhhh.. eeww.. ngahahahaha..
P/S/S: I want to go out and have some fun!!!! Dah more than a week melekat kat umah... bosannye!!! At least for a movie, or a dinner or like, a drink... puh-puhleeaaaassseeee!!!!
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Finally...
Welcome, welcome annnddddd welcome!!!
I have finally done a blogger page.. Well, I had one last time, but I didn't use it for almost a year, forgot the password, had a hard time reactivating it, and here I am doing a new one...
I won't be blogging in friendster anymore I guess.. sebab cam kat sini lg senang.. hehehe. anyways... have fun reading..
Hope I have time to update my blog from time to time...
Sweet!!
I have finally done a blogger page.. Well, I had one last time, but I didn't use it for almost a year, forgot the password, had a hard time reactivating it, and here I am doing a new one...
I won't be blogging in friendster anymore I guess.. sebab cam kat sini lg senang.. hehehe. anyways... have fun reading..
Hope I have time to update my blog from time to time...
Sweet!!
Feelings...
The more I think of it.. the more I think it's just something I shouldn't take so seriousl... or should I? Owh.. the things I have to think about.. the pros n cons... the ups n downs.. the happiness and the sadness...
Maybe it's a joke, maybe it's not.. maybe, more time is needed. But one thing for sure, I want an honest upfront answer.. no hiding.. I can't afford to hide anymore.. I can't afford to wait and suddenly loose it.. it's either I have something, or I loose it at an early phase, before things go haywire... I've done my part, I've said my part, or so I think... wonder if it's clear.. what I say...
Yes, I do want it.. and no, I'm not hesitating. This is the now. This is what I've been waiting for. But IF there is need of deeper, and more thorough thoughts and consideration, then I will respect that. But I need to know, where this is all going now...
Again.. Trying not to consider it too much.. but I can't help it... It's like almost every hour, there are things that happen round me that remind me of it... It's something serious... not something to take for granted.. not for me, that's for sure.
Maybe it's a joke, maybe it's not.. maybe, more time is needed. But one thing for sure, I want an honest upfront answer.. no hiding.. I can't afford to hide anymore.. I can't afford to wait and suddenly loose it.. it's either I have something, or I loose it at an early phase, before things go haywire... I've done my part, I've said my part, or so I think... wonder if it's clear.. what I say...
Yes, I do want it.. and no, I'm not hesitating. This is the now. This is what I've been waiting for. But IF there is need of deeper, and more thorough thoughts and consideration, then I will respect that. But I need to know, where this is all going now...
Again.. Trying not to consider it too much.. but I can't help it... It's like almost every hour, there are things that happen round me that remind me of it... It's something serious... not something to take for granted.. not for me, that's for sure.
Turning 25.. and loving it!!!
Posted 10th June 2008:
On the verge of me turning 25.. a quarter of a century old.. many suprising things happen... All, I must say, has changed me in some way.. and has actually even changed me into a better person.
I've began my career, started to earn my own money, pay my own bills, learning how to go pening kpale bile nk pikir nk bayar all the bills.. hahaha...
I've got my own car.. learnt how to be responsible with it.. Fill up the gas, don't get it schratched, pay the roadtax, top up the Touch n Go card, buy stuff for the car.. though I did get a 'new car' gift from Syaz.. a sign that says 'Very Important Princess On Board'.. hahaha.. Thanks Syaz..
Owh.. I've started to get verryyy busy with work, n starting to feel the stress.. one thing good is that, I don't bring the stress home.. Everything is left at work... Harini was soooo busy, I haven't even had time to go to the toilet!! Not until lunch time and the time mase nk balik tuu.. Hahahaha..
I err.. also got some news which unexpectedly kinda like.. how do u say... got me into a state of restlessness and wondering and excitement and terkejut-ness and happiness and worriness and err... hahaha... don't know how to put it into words laa.. Don't want to think about it too much.
Nothing is certain yet until it is certain.. until everything is actually assured n confirmed.. It is a matter of heart, soul and mind, which, in my opinion has to be carefully considered and thought off. Yeah.. I guess that's how u put it now..
I in fact have also made some of the bestest friends anyone could have.. U know who you guys are.. And I thank God for giving me the oppurtunity to get to know you guys better, and I appreciate every moment of it.. You guys may be new friends.. but you've carved your name.. or should I say tatooed your names, into my heart n mind. I love you guys... I love you even more...
Nevertheless, I have also went thru some turmoil.. but for me.. it was minor.. coz, yes, I did loose a bit of my dignity, but I didn't loose much.. Those involved in making that certain days a turmoil.. well, I guess that person lost more than I did... the lost of total respect from me and a few other people..
Mommy's eye operation, and being there for the 1st time, after years of not being there for mommy's previous surgeries, have helped me to realise the responsibilty that I will need to carry, in order to take care of my parents, and cherish them with love, the way they have been showering me with theirs, the past 25 years.. and 9 months.. (kene include skali time I dlm perot.. hahaha).
Each new thing that has happen to me this past few months, up till today, has made me into a person that thinks more clearly n sophisticatedly n maturedly.. though I still get my weng-ness on n off.. hahaha..
On the verge of me turning 25.. a quarter of a century old.. many suprising things happen... All, I must say, has changed me in some way.. and has actually even changed me into a better person.
I've began my career, started to earn my own money, pay my own bills, learning how to go pening kpale bile nk pikir nk bayar all the bills.. hahaha...
I've got my own car.. learnt how to be responsible with it.. Fill up the gas, don't get it schratched, pay the roadtax, top up the Touch n Go card, buy stuff for the car.. though I did get a 'new car' gift from Syaz.. a sign that says 'Very Important Princess On Board'.. hahaha.. Thanks Syaz..
Owh.. I've started to get verryyy busy with work, n starting to feel the stress.. one thing good is that, I don't bring the stress home.. Everything is left at work... Harini was soooo busy, I haven't even had time to go to the toilet!! Not until lunch time and the time mase nk balik tuu.. Hahahaha..
I err.. also got some news which unexpectedly kinda like.. how do u say... got me into a state of restlessness and wondering and excitement and terkejut-ness and happiness and worriness and err... hahaha... don't know how to put it into words laa.. Don't want to think about it too much.
Nothing is certain yet until it is certain.. until everything is actually assured n confirmed.. It is a matter of heart, soul and mind, which, in my opinion has to be carefully considered and thought off. Yeah.. I guess that's how u put it now..
I in fact have also made some of the bestest friends anyone could have.. U know who you guys are.. And I thank God for giving me the oppurtunity to get to know you guys better, and I appreciate every moment of it.. You guys may be new friends.. but you've carved your name.. or should I say tatooed your names, into my heart n mind. I love you guys... I love you even more...
Nevertheless, I have also went thru some turmoil.. but for me.. it was minor.. coz, yes, I did loose a bit of my dignity, but I didn't loose much.. Those involved in making that certain days a turmoil.. well, I guess that person lost more than I did... the lost of total respect from me and a few other people..
Mommy's eye operation, and being there for the 1st time, after years of not being there for mommy's previous surgeries, have helped me to realise the responsibilty that I will need to carry, in order to take care of my parents, and cherish them with love, the way they have been showering me with theirs, the past 25 years.. and 9 months.. (kene include skali time I dlm perot.. hahaha).
Each new thing that has happen to me this past few months, up till today, has made me into a person that thinks more clearly n sophisticatedly n maturedly.. though I still get my weng-ness on n off.. hahaha..
Are we RUDE??
Posted 26th June 2006:
For this blog... i'd prefer to post in in Manglish.. ye la kan.. kot kot la org lain bace, at least derang tak paham sgt.. hahaha..
Anyway, baru-baru ni kat dlm surat khabar, heboh mengatakan (skemanye...) yg dlm Reader's Digest, K.L was voted the 3rd rudest city in the world. Betulke review ni? Well.. meh kite tengok dari pandangan kite sendiri sebagai rakyat Malaysia.. betul atau tidak sangkaan orang.
Mula2... kite kutuk orang lain dulu.. haahahaha... org yg buat survey ni pun bengong.. buat based on a few tests.. ape die? Terjatuh file lah, tunggu org bukak pintu la, senyum lah, service with a smile la... and watever else... Kalau based on that je.. hampeh.. memang banyak la kan country kat dunia ni yg rude. Lepas tu, the fact that, org yg buat survey tu plak, kalo tak silap, dtg from the epal besar... (saper dpt tangkap.. terer!) bandar yg terkenal di seluruh dunia, yg dipenuhi penjenayah, dan sewaktu dengannye... Derang kat situ pun, lagi banyak yg kurang ajar dan biadap.. tapi tak pun kene rated as top 3... knape? sebab org negara derang sendiri, in a state of denial.. derang sendiri tanak mengaku kelemahan negara sendiri, pastu suke hati tok nenek derang jer, nak rate negara org... and mengata negara orang.
But, in some ways, memang tak dinafikan... walaupun kita rakyat Malaysia sepatutnye dilabelkan masyarakat berbudi bahasa dan bersopan santun, tapi there is still a lot of us Malaysians, yg masih agak kasar dlm sikap mereka. Masih banyak lagi antara kita yg tak ladylike than gentleman.. contoh terbaik... kalo nak ikot bab bukak pintu kat org.. haha.. jgn harap.. kalo derang bukak pintu, bukak kat diri sendiri.. pastu, yg tension tu, kalo pintu tu jenis swing, org blakang tu, ketepek.. kene langgar ngan pintu. And then kalo bab barang jatuh... ahahhaha.. kalo barang org lain jatuh.. either kite buat muke seposen.. atau kalo yg dajjal.. gi curik brg org tu.. bukannye nak pulangkan.
Then there's the sexism issue... there's still a lot of people who are chauvinist pigs.. or ape2 la yg derang panggil kan... some lelaki, masih anggap mereka lebih hebat dari perempuan.. of course la they are.. in a lot of ways, but come on... ade la amik berat sket or bertolak ansur sket ngan kite pompuan nih... just because kitorg from the weaker sex, doesn't mean you guys can just diss us girls, or mengarah2 kitorg suke hati derang jer... and then, nak salahkan lelaki jer pun takleh, kite pompuan pun, ade mase, still terhegeh2... konon nak sopan.. tapi sampai biar je org lain buat ape kat kite. At least have some pride in yourselves la... jgn sampai org lain leh pijak kpale kite just like that.. we're in a balance world now... Kalo as an isteri or anak or adik or kakak.. ok, i admit.. we have to show contoh terbaik and turut kate org lelaki.. that is part of our family.
Sebab nilah.. lelaki rude ngan prompuan sebab derang ingat derang leh control kite... and some prompuan lak... terover2 woman power sgt.. sampai lelaki marah jer.. die terajang tros laki tu, or laki tu buat small minor move ngan pompuan tuh tros nak saman laki tu for sexual harrasment...haha.. over la tu kan.. we have to have balance in our life, in this world.. give and take.. that's how it goes..
Oh, then another issue that we Malaysians have, is patience.. we lack that. Masih banyak yg sooo tak sabar.. especially on the road.. tau nak laju, cut org and pecut... ntah aper nak dikejar pun tak tau.. org lambat sket pun dah maki hamun bagai nak rak.. kot2 org tu terleka ke ape.. no one's perfect la kan.. lain la kalo contohnye kat traffic light, lampu dah hijau, org depan kite tak gerak2 lagi, sampai red light kuar balik pun org tu tak jalan.. then bleh la hon.. tapi takat hon je dah la.. ni tak.. nak gak tunjuk who's the man/woman... kuar kreta, maki hamun org depan.. then buat kecoh.. tak sedar diri.. dah stop org tu kat tgh jalan.. padahal konon nak cepat.. lagi buat traffic jam kat tgh2 jalan. Sometimes we just don't think before we do something.. main melulu jer buat.
Lantak la org kata ape pun..We are big bullies at times. But we don't realise it, until kite sendiri terkena.
Smiling... beratkah mulut kite untuk mengukir senyuman?... not really.. kengkadang kite rajin nak senyum kat org.. tapi org lain lak kate kite ni giler.. senyum sorang2.. either that.. or kalo kite senyum kat the opposite sex, kenala kite ngan gelaran.. gatal, miang, tak sedar diri, etc.. So kite nak senyum kat org pun serba salah.. sebab org lain nyer view and thought about us smiling.. so that i don't blame anyone la.. but the truth is.. smiling satu sedekah.. in fact, smiling is a good way for facial exercise.. so if you see someone smile at you.. maybe they just feel like it.. so smile back. Or if you just feel like smiling, then do so.. it's a beautiful thing, smiling.
Actually, what i've stated here, walaupun i letak Malaysians as the main topic, but ni also di tujukan gak for everyone in this world... So, bak kate org, cermin diri dulu, before mengata org.. Kalo diri sendiri dah perangai tak elok, jgn nak deny... coz nanti we won't be able to see our own fault, and only see other people's fault.. and because of that la kat dunia ni penoh ngan org perasaan hasad dengki, sebab masing2 tk puas hati ngan org lain, padahal diri sendiri pun same, or better yet, lagi terok dr org yg kite kutuk tu..
Anyway, suke hati la org nak kate ape pun.. but this is my comment la.. what i think.. banyak lagi sebenarnye.. but if nak luahkan semue.. mau satu hari nak blog.. i dahla ngantuk giler ni.. maybe lain kali.. when issues like this come up again.. so, if anyone of you have any other comments, or tak puas hati ngan aper yg i comment, feel free to say anything. it's a free world.. i won't mind.. kalo i sakit hati pun.. i diam2 kan jer.. paling2 kalo tension sgt ngan komen korang, i leh terjun jambatan... bukan bunuh diri.. tapi buat bungy.. hahaha.. release tension aper!
Well, till then... See ya when i See ya!!
For this blog... i'd prefer to post in in Manglish.. ye la kan.. kot kot la org lain bace, at least derang tak paham sgt.. hahaha..
Anyway, baru-baru ni kat dlm surat khabar, heboh mengatakan (skemanye...) yg dlm Reader's Digest, K.L was voted the 3rd rudest city in the world. Betulke review ni? Well.. meh kite tengok dari pandangan kite sendiri sebagai rakyat Malaysia.. betul atau tidak sangkaan orang.
Mula2... kite kutuk orang lain dulu.. haahahaha... org yg buat survey ni pun bengong.. buat based on a few tests.. ape die? Terjatuh file lah, tunggu org bukak pintu la, senyum lah, service with a smile la... and watever else... Kalau based on that je.. hampeh.. memang banyak la kan country kat dunia ni yg rude. Lepas tu, the fact that, org yg buat survey tu plak, kalo tak silap, dtg from the epal besar... (saper dpt tangkap.. terer!) bandar yg terkenal di seluruh dunia, yg dipenuhi penjenayah, dan sewaktu dengannye... Derang kat situ pun, lagi banyak yg kurang ajar dan biadap.. tapi tak pun kene rated as top 3... knape? sebab org negara derang sendiri, in a state of denial.. derang sendiri tanak mengaku kelemahan negara sendiri, pastu suke hati tok nenek derang jer, nak rate negara org... and mengata negara orang.
But, in some ways, memang tak dinafikan... walaupun kita rakyat Malaysia sepatutnye dilabelkan masyarakat berbudi bahasa dan bersopan santun, tapi there is still a lot of us Malaysians, yg masih agak kasar dlm sikap mereka. Masih banyak lagi antara kita yg tak ladylike than gentleman.. contoh terbaik... kalo nak ikot bab bukak pintu kat org.. haha.. jgn harap.. kalo derang bukak pintu, bukak kat diri sendiri.. pastu, yg tension tu, kalo pintu tu jenis swing, org blakang tu, ketepek.. kene langgar ngan pintu. And then kalo bab barang jatuh... ahahhaha.. kalo barang org lain jatuh.. either kite buat muke seposen.. atau kalo yg dajjal.. gi curik brg org tu.. bukannye nak pulangkan.
Then there's the sexism issue... there's still a lot of people who are chauvinist pigs.. or ape2 la yg derang panggil kan... some lelaki, masih anggap mereka lebih hebat dari perempuan.. of course la they are.. in a lot of ways, but come on... ade la amik berat sket or bertolak ansur sket ngan kite pompuan nih... just because kitorg from the weaker sex, doesn't mean you guys can just diss us girls, or mengarah2 kitorg suke hati derang jer... and then, nak salahkan lelaki jer pun takleh, kite pompuan pun, ade mase, still terhegeh2... konon nak sopan.. tapi sampai biar je org lain buat ape kat kite. At least have some pride in yourselves la... jgn sampai org lain leh pijak kpale kite just like that.. we're in a balance world now... Kalo as an isteri or anak or adik or kakak.. ok, i admit.. we have to show contoh terbaik and turut kate org lelaki.. that is part of our family.
Sebab nilah.. lelaki rude ngan prompuan sebab derang ingat derang leh control kite... and some prompuan lak... terover2 woman power sgt.. sampai lelaki marah jer.. die terajang tros laki tu, or laki tu buat small minor move ngan pompuan tuh tros nak saman laki tu for sexual harrasment...haha.. over la tu kan.. we have to have balance in our life, in this world.. give and take.. that's how it goes..
Oh, then another issue that we Malaysians have, is patience.. we lack that. Masih banyak yg sooo tak sabar.. especially on the road.. tau nak laju, cut org and pecut... ntah aper nak dikejar pun tak tau.. org lambat sket pun dah maki hamun bagai nak rak.. kot2 org tu terleka ke ape.. no one's perfect la kan.. lain la kalo contohnye kat traffic light, lampu dah hijau, org depan kite tak gerak2 lagi, sampai red light kuar balik pun org tu tak jalan.. then bleh la hon.. tapi takat hon je dah la.. ni tak.. nak gak tunjuk who's the man/woman... kuar kreta, maki hamun org depan.. then buat kecoh.. tak sedar diri.. dah stop org tu kat tgh jalan.. padahal konon nak cepat.. lagi buat traffic jam kat tgh2 jalan. Sometimes we just don't think before we do something.. main melulu jer buat.
Lantak la org kata ape pun..We are big bullies at times. But we don't realise it, until kite sendiri terkena.
Smiling... beratkah mulut kite untuk mengukir senyuman?... not really.. kengkadang kite rajin nak senyum kat org.. tapi org lain lak kate kite ni giler.. senyum sorang2.. either that.. or kalo kite senyum kat the opposite sex, kenala kite ngan gelaran.. gatal, miang, tak sedar diri, etc.. So kite nak senyum kat org pun serba salah.. sebab org lain nyer view and thought about us smiling.. so that i don't blame anyone la.. but the truth is.. smiling satu sedekah.. in fact, smiling is a good way for facial exercise.. so if you see someone smile at you.. maybe they just feel like it.. so smile back. Or if you just feel like smiling, then do so.. it's a beautiful thing, smiling.
Actually, what i've stated here, walaupun i letak Malaysians as the main topic, but ni also di tujukan gak for everyone in this world... So, bak kate org, cermin diri dulu, before mengata org.. Kalo diri sendiri dah perangai tak elok, jgn nak deny... coz nanti we won't be able to see our own fault, and only see other people's fault.. and because of that la kat dunia ni penoh ngan org perasaan hasad dengki, sebab masing2 tk puas hati ngan org lain, padahal diri sendiri pun same, or better yet, lagi terok dr org yg kite kutuk tu..
Anyway, suke hati la org nak kate ape pun.. but this is my comment la.. what i think.. banyak lagi sebenarnye.. but if nak luahkan semue.. mau satu hari nak blog.. i dahla ngantuk giler ni.. maybe lain kali.. when issues like this come up again.. so, if anyone of you have any other comments, or tak puas hati ngan aper yg i comment, feel free to say anything. it's a free world.. i won't mind.. kalo i sakit hati pun.. i diam2 kan jer.. paling2 kalo tension sgt ngan komen korang, i leh terjun jambatan... bukan bunuh diri.. tapi buat bungy.. hahaha.. release tension aper!
Well, till then... See ya when i See ya!!
On LOVE...
Posted 27th April 2007, but hey... this can even be used err.. now?? Wahahahaha... :
The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster,
and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh, then cry.
The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love...
The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and it's always there somewhere in your life.
The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true.
The strange thing about love is that even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.
Love is strange isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right.
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I am in love.. but with someone.. I do not think would love me back.. and it hurts, deeply, madly, truly.. If only I could make that person love me back.. Alas.. I can't. All I can do is wait and hope for the best. And look for some alternatives.. though I'm afraid to do so.. because what if this person does love me back? And at that time, I've already found another person? I'd loose the chance of ever being with this person. This is so hard... sometimes I wonder, why this person came into my life in the 1st place. Why did he have to come into my life and be soooo... right. Yet sooo, (sigh...) unreachable.. Maybe he came into my life, as just a friend. To keep me company, and to make me smile... but not to love me and fall for me, the way I have love and fall for him.
This is sad... oh sooo sad. I feel miserable at times.. because he is always there.. but not. Do you know what I mean? It's like... he's everywhere, everywhere I look or think or see.. I see him.. in my mind, in my laptop, in my phone, in my clothes, on the streets (well part of him).. everywhere.. yet I can't reach his heart. If only by saying "Choose me, love me" would be easy, and that he would choose me in the end. Nothing is certain... and I hate this feeling. hate it.. HATE IT!
The strange thing about love is that it can make your heart beat faster,
and the strange thing about love is that it can make you laugh, then cry.
The strange thing about love is that it's uneven: in this life, you may be loved by someone you don't love back, and you may love someone who doesn't return your love...
The strange thing about love is that it's always worth it, and it's always there somewhere in your life.
The strange thing about love is that you have to believe in it for it to be true.
The strange thing about love is that even if it's a different story than you expected, somehow it all works out.
Love is strange isn't it? But trust in it... and you will be all right.
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I am in love.. but with someone.. I do not think would love me back.. and it hurts, deeply, madly, truly.. If only I could make that person love me back.. Alas.. I can't. All I can do is wait and hope for the best. And look for some alternatives.. though I'm afraid to do so.. because what if this person does love me back? And at that time, I've already found another person? I'd loose the chance of ever being with this person. This is so hard... sometimes I wonder, why this person came into my life in the 1st place. Why did he have to come into my life and be soooo... right. Yet sooo, (sigh...) unreachable.. Maybe he came into my life, as just a friend. To keep me company, and to make me smile... but not to love me and fall for me, the way I have love and fall for him.
This is sad... oh sooo sad. I feel miserable at times.. because he is always there.. but not. Do you know what I mean? It's like... he's everywhere, everywhere I look or think or see.. I see him.. in my mind, in my laptop, in my phone, in my clothes, on the streets (well part of him).. everywhere.. yet I can't reach his heart. If only by saying "Choose me, love me" would be easy, and that he would choose me in the end. Nothing is certain... and I hate this feeling. hate it.. HATE IT!
Mommy's Operation
Posted 29th April 2008:
Alhamdulillah, Mommy has recovered from her eye surgery. Everythin went well, though a supposedly one hour operation took 2 hours, because the doctor had a minor difficulty putting in the new lens, because of Mommy's eye shape. But all went well, nevertheless. By the way, for those who didn't know.. my mom went for surgery to remove a cataract that was inside of her eyes, rather than the normal case of having catarart kat luar mata. And the doctor also implant new lens into mommy's eye, and removed the old lapisan.
Let's go through step by step of what happened, prior and during n post surgery. Me, Mommy and Daddy went to the hospital, went to the admin office, and was told that there were no available rooms at the moment. The hospital was full house!! So we waited for almost 2 hours. And while waiting, mommy had an x-ray, a blood test and an EPG test.. i think that's what they call it.. I can't remember, though I had the same test a few years back, when I was diagnose with the Murmur of the heart.
Soon after, a patient had checked out, and Mommy could go into the room. The room was big enough for an extra bed, so we took an extra bed for me to sleep in, while I accompany mommy thru the nite. Lepas dah settle down, I went home to pack my stuff n bring nenek with me. Nenek cute giler.. jalan dah x nampak, but still semangat nak tgk nenek. Then nenek dok complain tak nampak laa.. dah tue laa.. hahahaha.. When we arrived, dinner was already served, but mommy xnak makan. So daddy walked to the near mamak restaurant kat Tmn Tun tu n bought some food for both me n her. Daddy ate the hospital food. Nenek xnak makan, coz she had cooked something at home for herself.
After daddy n nenek balik, mommy tros mintak i switch on the laptop. Nak siapkan her carry marks for her students. Which got me a bit pissed off with the whole faculty and her students. Dah tau mommy sakit, n still expect her to do work, and non-stop calling n messaging my mom until late at night. Can't they just leave her alone? Tak cukup dgn she was stressed over with the operation, with her being down the whole day, worried about herself, ditambahkan plak ngan the non stop calls. Luckily I was able to help mommy to do some of it. The nurse masuk n bising kat mommy gak.. tros the nurse gave mommy a sleeping pill. Coz she needed plenty of rest before her operation the nxt morning.
Yg lawaknye.. mase mommy took the sleeping pill, I was the one feeling sleepy. But then after mommy dah tido, I plak couldn't sleep. Maybe because of the anxiety plus nurse yg dok kuar masuk check on mommy tu... Then I bangun2 je, mommy dah siap2 nak go into surgery. Just nk tunggu nurse je amik die.
About 20 min later, the nurse came in, put in a few eye drops into mommy's eye, and soon took mommy to the operation theatre. It was that moment that I couldn't help but feeling all teary eyes. Plus mommy punye suara pun dah start sebak. But like usual, what makes me lagi sedih, when I saw daddy's eye getting all red. No tears.. but just watery n red. I told myself to control the tears, coz I didn't want Mommy to see the both of us sasd. she needed the strength. Lepas mommy masuk jer, tros daddy ajak I makan b/fast kat the cafeteria. Maybe it was the food or maybe it was me, but serious x sedap. Hahaha.. but it took my mind out of the operation for a while, sebab dok complain pasal food. Hishh.. trok betul. After that me n daddy waited in mommy's room. But bile dah nk dekat2 an hour tu, I started waiting in front of the operation theatre door. Dok jalan kehulu kehilir.. pusing2 kat dpn tu.. nurses pun pening tgk I. Hahaha.. Schatz told me to main2 lif.. but I was happier spinning around kat dpt operation theatre tu, while listening to musics on my mp3.
After almost 2 hours.. I started to panic, because mommy still didn't came out. The doctor kate, paling lame pun would be an hour n a half.. but it was already 2 hours. Panicnyer tak ingat. everytime operation theatre punye pintu bukak.. I went all jumpy. At around 10.43am, 2 hours n 20minutes after mommy went in, she came out.. antara sedar n x sedar. I kejar mommy punya bed, yg nurse tgh tolak. but bile sampai bilik, nurse suruh duduk luar. Then x sampai 5 minutes, dengar mommy dah start muntah2... a good sign in a way.
Later mommy jsut rested, though she had to vomit and buang air a number of times. Mule2 tu kene pimpin mommy, n even had to wash her up, because she was too groggy and mabuk2 to even move. But after an hour or 2, she could walk on her own, though I still accompanied her into the bathroom, just in case. Mommy still tak lalu makan, because of her dizziness... minum milo pun mommy muntah balik. So I just gave her plain water. daddy plak gi meeting, as soon as mommy dah sedar.
Lunch time came, and I was damn sleepy.. baru nk tido, mommy nk gi bilik air.. then I plak lapar.. so went down to bungkus some food. During that time, mommy dah sedap tido dah. So I tried to rest after lunch. Baru nak lelap, my mom's eldest sister, Auntie Ju n my cousins, Abg Ku Han and Kim dtg. Dahhh.. bangun balik. Hahahaha.. mase tu jugak trase cam nk mintak nurse sleeping pill. Aunty Ju stayed for about 2 hours.. all through out, she n Kim dok bercerita ngan I macam2.. even mase kitorg turun kat cafe bawah tu.. but I didn't quite pay attention, because dah terlampau mengantuk. Semue pun I main angguk jer.. Hahaha.. sian derang.. buat bazir air liur jer dok crite macam2 kat I.
5 minutes lepas derang balik, daddy plak sampai. Then we stayed for about 30 min, n daddy
sent me home. Sampai2 umah je, lepas dah ckp2 ngan nenek n bg makan kucing, I slept on the sofa for 2 hours straight. Tonite is daddy's turn to teman Mommy. And 2moro, Mommy will InsyaAllah, be discharged.
Thanks to everyone who message me n gave me words of support, as well as the doa's from all of you. Appreciate it very much. And to those people yg checked up on me n my mom ever so constantly without fail since yesterday n throughout today, you know who you are. And I appreciate the concerns. I wouldn't be this strong without you guys nyer help.
Alhamdulillah, Mommy has recovered from her eye surgery. Everythin went well, though a supposedly one hour operation took 2 hours, because the doctor had a minor difficulty putting in the new lens, because of Mommy's eye shape. But all went well, nevertheless. By the way, for those who didn't know.. my mom went for surgery to remove a cataract that was inside of her eyes, rather than the normal case of having catarart kat luar mata. And the doctor also implant new lens into mommy's eye, and removed the old lapisan.
Let's go through step by step of what happened, prior and during n post surgery. Me, Mommy and Daddy went to the hospital, went to the admin office, and was told that there were no available rooms at the moment. The hospital was full house!! So we waited for almost 2 hours. And while waiting, mommy had an x-ray, a blood test and an EPG test.. i think that's what they call it.. I can't remember, though I had the same test a few years back, when I was diagnose with the Murmur of the heart.
Soon after, a patient had checked out, and Mommy could go into the room. The room was big enough for an extra bed, so we took an extra bed for me to sleep in, while I accompany mommy thru the nite. Lepas dah settle down, I went home to pack my stuff n bring nenek with me. Nenek cute giler.. jalan dah x nampak, but still semangat nak tgk nenek. Then nenek dok complain tak nampak laa.. dah tue laa.. hahahaha.. When we arrived, dinner was already served, but mommy xnak makan. So daddy walked to the near mamak restaurant kat Tmn Tun tu n bought some food for both me n her. Daddy ate the hospital food. Nenek xnak makan, coz she had cooked something at home for herself.
After daddy n nenek balik, mommy tros mintak i switch on the laptop. Nak siapkan her carry marks for her students. Which got me a bit pissed off with the whole faculty and her students. Dah tau mommy sakit, n still expect her to do work, and non-stop calling n messaging my mom until late at night. Can't they just leave her alone? Tak cukup dgn she was stressed over with the operation, with her being down the whole day, worried about herself, ditambahkan plak ngan the non stop calls. Luckily I was able to help mommy to do some of it. The nurse masuk n bising kat mommy gak.. tros the nurse gave mommy a sleeping pill. Coz she needed plenty of rest before her operation the nxt morning.
Yg lawaknye.. mase mommy took the sleeping pill, I was the one feeling sleepy. But then after mommy dah tido, I plak couldn't sleep. Maybe because of the anxiety plus nurse yg dok kuar masuk check on mommy tu... Then I bangun2 je, mommy dah siap2 nak go into surgery. Just nk tunggu nurse je amik die.
About 20 min later, the nurse came in, put in a few eye drops into mommy's eye, and soon took mommy to the operation theatre. It was that moment that I couldn't help but feeling all teary eyes. Plus mommy punye suara pun dah start sebak. But like usual, what makes me lagi sedih, when I saw daddy's eye getting all red. No tears.. but just watery n red. I told myself to control the tears, coz I didn't want Mommy to see the both of us sasd. she needed the strength. Lepas mommy masuk jer, tros daddy ajak I makan b/fast kat the cafeteria. Maybe it was the food or maybe it was me, but serious x sedap. Hahaha.. but it took my mind out of the operation for a while, sebab dok complain pasal food. Hishh.. trok betul. After that me n daddy waited in mommy's room. But bile dah nk dekat2 an hour tu, I started waiting in front of the operation theatre door. Dok jalan kehulu kehilir.. pusing2 kat dpn tu.. nurses pun pening tgk I. Hahaha.. Schatz told me to main2 lif.. but I was happier spinning around kat dpt operation theatre tu, while listening to musics on my mp3.
After almost 2 hours.. I started to panic, because mommy still didn't came out. The doctor kate, paling lame pun would be an hour n a half.. but it was already 2 hours. Panicnyer tak ingat. everytime operation theatre punye pintu bukak.. I went all jumpy. At around 10.43am, 2 hours n 20minutes after mommy went in, she came out.. antara sedar n x sedar. I kejar mommy punya bed, yg nurse tgh tolak. but bile sampai bilik, nurse suruh duduk luar. Then x sampai 5 minutes, dengar mommy dah start muntah2... a good sign in a way.
Later mommy jsut rested, though she had to vomit and buang air a number of times. Mule2 tu kene pimpin mommy, n even had to wash her up, because she was too groggy and mabuk2 to even move. But after an hour or 2, she could walk on her own, though I still accompanied her into the bathroom, just in case. Mommy still tak lalu makan, because of her dizziness... minum milo pun mommy muntah balik. So I just gave her plain water. daddy plak gi meeting, as soon as mommy dah sedar.
Lunch time came, and I was damn sleepy.. baru nk tido, mommy nk gi bilik air.. then I plak lapar.. so went down to bungkus some food. During that time, mommy dah sedap tido dah. So I tried to rest after lunch. Baru nak lelap, my mom's eldest sister, Auntie Ju n my cousins, Abg Ku Han and Kim dtg. Dahhh.. bangun balik. Hahahaha.. mase tu jugak trase cam nk mintak nurse sleeping pill. Aunty Ju stayed for about 2 hours.. all through out, she n Kim dok bercerita ngan I macam2.. even mase kitorg turun kat cafe bawah tu.. but I didn't quite pay attention, because dah terlampau mengantuk. Semue pun I main angguk jer.. Hahaha.. sian derang.. buat bazir air liur jer dok crite macam2 kat I.
5 minutes lepas derang balik, daddy plak sampai. Then we stayed for about 30 min, n daddy
sent me home. Sampai2 umah je, lepas dah ckp2 ngan nenek n bg makan kucing, I slept on the sofa for 2 hours straight. Tonite is daddy's turn to teman Mommy. And 2moro, Mommy will InsyaAllah, be discharged.
Thanks to everyone who message me n gave me words of support, as well as the doa's from all of you. Appreciate it very much. And to those people yg checked up on me n my mom ever so constantly without fail since yesterday n throughout today, you know who you are. And I appreciate the concerns. I wouldn't be this strong without you guys nyer help.
Officially Missing Aotearoa...
Posted 3rd April 2008:
Now that EVERY single welly peeps, especially those I'm close too, are already back, n starting there new semester in Welly, I declare, that I Putri Nadeeya Zahari, am officially missing Wellington.
Yeap... missing everyone and every part of Wellington...
I miss not needing to pasang air-con, coz the room is freakin' cold..
I miss tercungap2 naik bukit to go to the main campus from 244..
I miss walking like mad down towards Pipitea campus, wearing my bubble jacket, taking the lift from James Cook, then even though I'm in a rush to go to class, still have the time to pandang Glassons and Jeans West and Borders and Farmers and Kirkcaldie.. in case there's a sale.. hahahaha..
I miss drinking Starbucks hot choc or Java Chip Frap, in between classes, or after classes, especially during cold weathers.. (Yess.. I'm crazy enough to drink Frapps even in winter!!!)
I miss the friendliness of the sales girls in all those shops I go to...
I miss the need to blow up Full House's office... (this is my secret dream.. but now, I'm letting everyone know!! Hahahaha)
I miss going to Pak N Save and spending time, in even choosing my own snacks and personal stuff.. ooohh.. and I miss the fish bites!! I miss new world, especially when they have promotions on the chocs n pistachio's hehehe..
I miss Abrakebabra and Satay Kajang and Cinta, and the bubble tea, and readings, and crepe-a-go-go, and esspressoholic, and st. pierre's sushi or midlands sushi...
I miss walking on Lambton Quay and Manners Mall and Cuba and Courtenay Place... I miss Time Zone!!! I miss getting those teddy bears... and I miss collecting the coupons..
I especially miss my friends.. I miss the Chantiques.. n those gossip nite we have on my bed, in my room... I miss seeing Sue getting high n laughing suddenly becoz of it, or how she takes ages to decide on what to buy, especially nak beli brg make-up.. hahaha.. Ellie singing or gaduh2 'manja' with me.. hahahaha and her lovely cooking, Naze's 'earthquake' laugh and her 'sex' (pilate's) jumping act di siang hari, Suhana's cekak pinggang sambil dok bercerita bout this n that.. and about shopping... I miss playing make-up with them in the middle of the nite, n taking vain pictures sampai beratus-ratus... I miss watching DVD's with them, especially crite hantu.. when we all scream like hell.. or their ability to wake me up, just through those laugh.. yg kat living room, tp sampai my room pun bley dengar.. hahahaha...
I miss Budak Gedik's tersangkut2 meow, seing her hiding in the box, only showing her eyes...
I miss Ainee N Krels earthquake laugh as well, and Ainee's lasagna and Pie ooohh.. and Naqib's ability to imitate dayang or Jac or those Layola's and Naomi's we see in you tube..
I miss seeing Rahmat's hair yg berjaya stay tegak for 3 days.. really power punye hair gum!!
I miss tickling Dibo or kacau him with the whole Alien Vs. Predator thing.. (works evertime!!) I miss Carrie when she blushes like a tomato.. and Liz and Athi's 'bebelan makcik' or Liz's hair, when it's all up mcm org dlm pantang.
I miss Dyana, and her 'xde perasaan-ness', but all of a sudden, menangis mcm bini kene tinggal laki, when I left for Malaysia..
I miss Flat n Padi n all the seniors in Welly (my batch, especially).. I also miss my juniors... (yg x tergedik2 pleaseee.. hahahaha)
I miss those coffee nite's in either Starbucks or Esspressoholics, after a good dinner.. then Time Zone after that, if x penat or mase tgh kaya raya... hahahaha..
I miss taking the buss here n there, I miss Te Papa, and the harbour, I even miss the blanket man.. and that pakcik in manners mall, who, until now, I can never figure out what he's singing about, until he says 'thank you'.. and those colourful feathers on his head.
I miss saying 'Sweet' and 'It Dipinds', coz when I say it here.. people look at me one kind.. I miss being called 'love' or 'honey' or 'sweetheart' by those lovely saleswoman.. I miss calling out 'Belacan' to any Malays I see here n there around Welly.
I miss the sheeps and the tuatara (walaupun I geli giler kat tuatara...). I miss the beautiful scenery and the sudden 'peace' u get when u see the beauty of the nature there.. I miss driving in welly, and tengok Possum's dead on the road.. hahahaha..
All in all.. I miss Wellington, I miss New Zealand... I miss my friends there, and I miss the people.. but even though how much I miss all of that... It's too soon for me to go back.. even for a holiday.. I need to explore other places.. like Aussie and Fiji, for instance.. yg sampai skrg pun x gi lagi... ntah pape... pbbbhtt... Maybe next year would be ok.. or the earliest, the end of this year.. Hehehe...
For those people or those things that I forgot to mention here... doesn't mean I don't miss you guys.. But yeah... I admit.. dah tue2 ni, byk bende yg lupe.. hahahahaha...
Now that EVERY single welly peeps, especially those I'm close too, are already back, n starting there new semester in Welly, I declare, that I Putri Nadeeya Zahari, am officially missing Wellington.
Yeap... missing everyone and every part of Wellington...
I miss not needing to pasang air-con, coz the room is freakin' cold..
I miss tercungap2 naik bukit to go to the main campus from 244..
I miss walking like mad down towards Pipitea campus, wearing my bubble jacket, taking the lift from James Cook, then even though I'm in a rush to go to class, still have the time to pandang Glassons and Jeans West and Borders and Farmers and Kirkcaldie.. in case there's a sale.. hahahaha..
I miss drinking Starbucks hot choc or Java Chip Frap, in between classes, or after classes, especially during cold weathers.. (Yess.. I'm crazy enough to drink Frapps even in winter!!!)
I miss the friendliness of the sales girls in all those shops I go to...
I miss the need to blow up Full House's office... (this is my secret dream.. but now, I'm letting everyone know!! Hahahaha)
I miss going to Pak N Save and spending time, in even choosing my own snacks and personal stuff.. ooohh.. and I miss the fish bites!! I miss new world, especially when they have promotions on the chocs n pistachio's hehehe..
I miss Abrakebabra and Satay Kajang and Cinta, and the bubble tea, and readings, and crepe-a-go-go, and esspressoholic, and st. pierre's sushi or midlands sushi...
I miss walking on Lambton Quay and Manners Mall and Cuba and Courtenay Place... I miss Time Zone!!! I miss getting those teddy bears... and I miss collecting the coupons..
I especially miss my friends.. I miss the Chantiques.. n those gossip nite we have on my bed, in my room... I miss seeing Sue getting high n laughing suddenly becoz of it, or how she takes ages to decide on what to buy, especially nak beli brg make-up.. hahaha.. Ellie singing or gaduh2 'manja' with me.. hahahaha and her lovely cooking, Naze's 'earthquake' laugh and her 'sex' (pilate's) jumping act di siang hari, Suhana's cekak pinggang sambil dok bercerita bout this n that.. and about shopping... I miss playing make-up with them in the middle of the nite, n taking vain pictures sampai beratus-ratus... I miss watching DVD's with them, especially crite hantu.. when we all scream like hell.. or their ability to wake me up, just through those laugh.. yg kat living room, tp sampai my room pun bley dengar.. hahahaha...
I miss Budak Gedik's tersangkut2 meow, seing her hiding in the box, only showing her eyes...
I miss Ainee N Krels earthquake laugh as well, and Ainee's lasagna and Pie ooohh.. and Naqib's ability to imitate dayang or Jac or those Layola's and Naomi's we see in you tube..
I miss seeing Rahmat's hair yg berjaya stay tegak for 3 days.. really power punye hair gum!!
I miss tickling Dibo or kacau him with the whole Alien Vs. Predator thing.. (works evertime!!) I miss Carrie when she blushes like a tomato.. and Liz and Athi's 'bebelan makcik' or Liz's hair, when it's all up mcm org dlm pantang.
I miss Dyana, and her 'xde perasaan-ness', but all of a sudden, menangis mcm bini kene tinggal laki, when I left for Malaysia..
I miss Flat n Padi n all the seniors in Welly (my batch, especially).. I also miss my juniors... (yg x tergedik2 pleaseee.. hahahaha)
I miss those coffee nite's in either Starbucks or Esspressoholics, after a good dinner.. then Time Zone after that, if x penat or mase tgh kaya raya... hahahaha..
I miss taking the buss here n there, I miss Te Papa, and the harbour, I even miss the blanket man.. and that pakcik in manners mall, who, until now, I can never figure out what he's singing about, until he says 'thank you'.. and those colourful feathers on his head.
I miss saying 'Sweet' and 'It Dipinds', coz when I say it here.. people look at me one kind.. I miss being called 'love' or 'honey' or 'sweetheart' by those lovely saleswoman.. I miss calling out 'Belacan' to any Malays I see here n there around Welly.
I miss the sheeps and the tuatara (walaupun I geli giler kat tuatara...). I miss the beautiful scenery and the sudden 'peace' u get when u see the beauty of the nature there.. I miss driving in welly, and tengok Possum's dead on the road.. hahahaha..
All in all.. I miss Wellington, I miss New Zealand... I miss my friends there, and I miss the people.. but even though how much I miss all of that... It's too soon for me to go back.. even for a holiday.. I need to explore other places.. like Aussie and Fiji, for instance.. yg sampai skrg pun x gi lagi... ntah pape... pbbbhtt... Maybe next year would be ok.. or the earliest, the end of this year.. Hehehe...
For those people or those things that I forgot to mention here... doesn't mean I don't miss you guys.. But yeah... I admit.. dah tue2 ni, byk bende yg lupe.. hahahahaha...
Learning things, during my life in Welly...
Posted 28th October 2007:
- I have learnt many things here in during my life in Wellington.. some I am proud of.. some well... not really proud of.. hahaha.. so here goes.. in no particular order:
I have learnt to ignore the small things, that could lead to discomfort to the heart. Though sometimes, it's the small things that count.. but sometimes.. small things like small arguments or misscommunications.. just have to be left out, and not make a big deal out of it.
- I have learnt to just let be people, especially those who are so full of themselves.. or just plain hard to deal with. It may sound cruel at certain points.. but if u tend to follow their rythm n their wants.. u will end up being their 'pak turut' and it will just hurt u more..
- I have learnt to not put too much hope on things.. well, especially in empty promises.. have went thru that a lot.. n it hurts.. so I won't be hoping too much now.. just doa, tawakal... n see what happens.. go with the flow bak kate org...
- Be forgiving.. believe in giving 2nd chances.. 3rd chances in some situations.. but if dah troks sgt keadaan.. lantak pi lah. hahaha.. but never give reasons for someone.. whom don't need it.
- Believe that.. if a person is really into u.. he/she would go to any length to show how much he/she likes/loves u.. i've learnt from the best.. i've learnt from 5 people yg suke bg janji kosong.. dah 5 org baru aku nak sedar.. but xpe.. still early enough to make things right from now on.. Eheh..
- Learnt to not be ignorant with what is happening around me. It's a rapidly growing world around us.. we have to keep in pace with whatever is coming.. at least know the basics of things la.. I never realise, that I used to be ignorant.. coming here, has made me to realise.. that there are still sooo many things that i have yet to know about.
- Learnt that... tell u once, tell u twice... u still do it? lantak pi u lah.. some people are just plain degil.. u've given soo much advice, but they never appreciate what we do for them.. and they love to ruin themselves.. then be it. But.. in some circumstances.. no matter how cruel u sound or look like.. try to still have a soft heart to help that person when in real need. They'll learn to appreciate u... but sometimes.. they realise what u do for them.. a wee a bit too late. Which is kind of a lost.. but hey.. u loose some, u gain some.. live with it. It's a cruel world out there.
- I learnt to not talk when I'm mad.. rather than shout n scream.. but bile dah geram sgt.. i tend to talk in a very high pitched voice.. 120km/h.... The cantiques have witness this with their own eyes.. hahahahaa. Sometimes.. when I'm mad.. I'll just stay in my room.. n project my feelings to something more usefull.. like by doing this blog.. or layan crite2 merepek kat you tube tu hah..
- I have learnt to not waste money on people who actually use my money for their own comfort.. ye.. sesape terase... padan muke.. tapi.. ko xde frenster pun... wakakakaka.. Anyway.. dah xnak bg org tersedap with having the ability to manipulate my purse... I am not your sugar mommy honey... hahahaha.. kejam2... :P
- I have learnt to not cepat sangat terase hati with what people do to me.. or say to me... sometimes.. it's just not worth it. Maybe org tu sengaja atau tak.. but if it's a small matter.. don't make it into a big one..
- I still have not learnt to save up on money.. I appreciate it.. but I still have the inability to save... sigh... shopoholic yg teruk.. i wonder if they have shopoholic anonymous around here?? hrmmm... sometimes.. x shopping pon.. but the money tends to go somewhere else.. on food.. or phone bills for example.. pasni.. anyone who wants a long distance relationship.. u call me... hahaha.. or make it 50/50.. better yet.. get a damn internet n YM laaaa....
- I have learnt to cook much more better dishes than before... pasni, senang la nak kawin... mesti suami ku perot boncits... hahahaha
I have of course.. learnt to be much much more independent than I used too. But kan.. it's like an automatic switch.. sampai2 umah je.. pemalas balik. Coz it's like.. everyone at home pampers me.. but I guess. this time around.. xde dah kot. dah besar panjang.. no more manja2.. hehehe.. - Learnt to take things one step at a time.. n not rush into things.. or into conclusions, especially in a relationship. Jodoh kite ade, x kemane.. it just takes some time... yeah.. I feel lonely.. but I have my friends and my family... Kenal betul2 with a person, before going to the nxt step in a relationship.
- I have learnt to appreciate the small things.. well.. at least most of the time.. hehehe.. sometimes we still have that x puas hati or unsatisfied feeling of something.. but hey.. we're normal beings.. we tend to make mistakes.. just learn from those mistakes, try your best not to repeat it.. and move on with life..
- Bersyukur dgn ape kite ade... rezeki, flaws... kekurangan, kelebihan.. semuenye... sometimes.. well i used to think that i am one sad person.. but there are other people who are worst off.. bersyukur that I am not those person.. and am living a happy life with many people who love me n appreciate me.
- But sometimes.. I do tend to sulk as if the world around me has come to an end.. if I do this.. by all means.. please tegur me depan2.. jgn blakang2.. I would really, really appreciate it. Critism helps in bringing out a better person sometimes.
Watch my words when I say something.. not to hurt anybody else, be reasonable when talking and most of all, be considerate of other people's feelings. I have learnt them.. much better than before. - I have learnt that.. sometimes u really do have to be cruel in order to be kind.. sometimes people just don't learn.. and the only way in helping them is to not help them.
- One bad thing though.. I procrastinante much worse than before.. I do things at the last minute.. but kan.. I have always done things like this.. so maybe it's not much worse.. maybe I have just not change in the procrastination department. Ee... teroknye.. berubah la Nadeeya oiii!!!
- I babble too much on the net... but bile people meet me in person.. I am extremely quiet at some points.. i sometimes am like that... or.. i tend to make myself look silly, without even trying hard.. hahahaha... bad, bad thing to do.
- I still tend to have that cakap x serupe bikin attitude sometimes... am trying to throw it away.. I hate that part of me.. no wonder I hate when people do that to me.. because I do it to myself.. sighh...
- Something I realise.. my mommy instincts have kick in... I tend to membebel mcm mak org.. so I have 10 kids below me.. am I to blame? And not to mention, 10 very hyper n gila kids.. I guess they learn from the best.. they learn from meee.. hahaha... ye.. saye akan kurangkan membebel, sampai la ade anak betul2... skrg anak x betul.. hahaha
- I have learnt that.. this time around.. I need to find someone really worth giving my heart too.. someone who is capable to make me happy, responsible, caring.. n tolerant.. therefore.. i will be one as well.. in other words.. take good quality time to get to know a person... so I won't regret doing the same mistake over again.. and... wait.. mcm I dah ckp jer bende ni.. tak ke?
- I have learnt that.. I have still yet to loose weight before i come back to M'sia for good.. haiyaaa.. 2 months left.. sempat ke?? sempat, sempat... go Dee2.. go!! :P
I have learnt that... sometimes I nyanyok... well.. nyanyok is for org tue.. I am forgetfull.. yeahh.. sometimes laaaa.. hihihi - I have learnt that this list is very long... and that I need to stop, go to sleep.. n sambung the list, sometime this week. hahaha...
P/S: kalo ade sesape terase with this blog.. by all means.. i had no intention to do so... it is all about me.. well.. some parts.. ade la kat particular people.. but yeah... sorry kalo terase.. but good that u have realised... well if u realise laa.. hahahaha :P
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